what does it truly takes to tuck up, write down, dig in, pure and honest and heaven melting and soul tinkering and eyes watering and deeply touching and feelingly enriching words…?
I still ask the same.
I still turn back to my past work(s), which immediately reunites me with the crude semblance,.. with a not-anew feel of looking at the old paintings I once drew with so-much-a passion and love during my junior school days.
I have been through too much a dust, too many storms, too many tragedies, so much pain, and sorrow, too many disgusted looks and terrifying memories.
I went through too many betrayals, too much a trash to even recognize for once, the one I use to be.
So, please! Leave me alone. Let me be.
My eyes were open as clocks rotated around. I kept staring at the dull light, listening to the sound of a broken heart once the heart full of life.
I am tired. I am burnt. I am rusted. I am exasperated. I am irritated. I am incensed. I am infuriated. I am everything but me.
I feel like an elephant, shrunk and forced inside the body of as tiny as an ant who I once crushed like nothing she was. But I feel her pain now. I feel the loss of loss.
I feel the swelling of delighted, mocking Grief, warm and happy inside of me, scratching all soft surfaces as he forces himself deeper and deeper on me, in me. Depression he introduces himself — he weighs whales, shakes me to the below, teases me, demands my submission, croons his victory song over the wrecked I am, I be.
So, please! Let me grieve. Let me heal.
,.. I don’t mind being a sad poem for someone with a floralsoul.
She is an old wine, the only of a kind, poured secretly into a brand new bottle.
The likes of a cold, perpetual stormy wind in otherwise heartless, sweltering and wild desert.
She who fills me with the gravity of feelings I cannot define, can’t explain.
My favorite background piano music she, she embraces me with the likes of water for thirst, book for words, stars for the night, oxygen for the life, sunset for the ocean and love for the ones who are lost.
She’s the Diana Prince, the one that protects me, gives me strength, takes me places I have never seen, never been…
The best you can do today is not lose track of the time we all lose little by little.
The best you can do today is focus on educating yourself, polish your knowledge, learn new skills.
The best you can do today is crack open your heavy heart, open your loud skull and get all the UNIMPORTANTs out of the system and make room for new possibilities.
The best you can do today is avoid YouTube, Instagram, Facebook, Twitter or anything that’s distracting you from your purpose in life. Despite invest time in learning a new language, new instrument.
“Entertainment should be entertainment, not addiction.”
The best you can do today is nurture brotherhood, sisterhood; spend a little more time, laugh a little more with your family, with your dear ones.
The best you can do today is take care of yourself, respect your body, exercise, pay attention to the food you eat, the amount of water you drink.
The best you can do today is take deep breaths when you’re are stressed out and something is off the beat.
The best you can do today is to be happy about who you are in your flesh.
The best you can do today is read Anton Chekhov; grab a good book and read, listen to Eminem, listen to Ed, listen to Mozart.
The best you can do today is try something that kicks the crap out of you.
The best you can do today is sleep early to wake up early.
The best you can do today is try positive affirmation in front of the mirror; try gratification.
The best you can do today is to practice listening,practice awareness, reflection, and introspection.
The best you can do today is do whatever your heart wants to do; there is no need for approvals, validations. No instagram’s loves, followers woo’s, no facebook’s emojis, no twitter re-tweets.
There should not be any limitations to yours way of living.
You are the limit. You are what matters.
the best you can do today is chill, be the real you, be the best you wish you were, be the best you can be.