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Monica & Bishow Weds

Published February 5, 2026 By Bijay Shrestha

Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get- only with what you are expecting to give-
which is everything.
KATHARINE HEPBURN

Sweet Heat Lightning – Gregory Alan Isakov

Feb 5, 2026, 3AM.

It was about time.

Finally, a decade-old, mostly long-distance relationship between the two received its long-awaited seal of approval from the elders—in red tika, flowers, diyos, prayers, and blessings.

Priest reciting sacred verses.

Groom, Bride, both visibly cautions to follow through the instructions.

Attendees few excited and hooked; plenty at the verge of sleep, barely awake.

I, awake, present, absolute — feeling grateful to be part of the marriage matrix.

Groom, my twin brother, the man of the hour dressed in a sharp, double-breasted navy blue suit with subtle white pinstripes, fastened with two buttons for a classic, sophisticated look. Nonetheless, he is visibly nervous, meticulous and vigilant — all while wanting to make sure he is at his best self.

The bride, a radiant counterpart and the heart of the ceremony—dressed in traditional Nepali Hindu bridal attire: a rich red saree, brocaded with intricate gold embroidery and floral motifs; gold jewelry adorning her from head to toe, evidently representing strength, passion, and her goddess-like status. Fresh mehndi on her hands, duly inviting good fortune and warding off evil spirits. Shyness palpable. Attentive, serene, perhaps exhausted —calm outside, but more so

quietly “on fire” inside.

All the attention there is to, there can be— Is on the red-and-blue couple seated at the center corner of the hall.

They seemed happy, albeit eager to just get it over with.

Closeness is the craving.

The rest? Mere formalities.

So beautiful – the whole thing.

Peaceful – the vibe.

Heart warming – the look in the eyes.

Two ‘in-love’ souls.

One ‘for-life’ goal.

Monica.

Bishow.

Weds.

Namaste.

You Cook

Published January 22, 2026 By Bijay Shrestha

Can you cook?
Musicpervs

Paresh Pahuja – Dooron Dooron

One thing living alone has taught me well:

That no matter if your bones feel heavy, and you don’t feel like getting up from your futon. But when your stomach is asking for some love, care, attention and kindness;

you get up,

you cook.

You enjoy whatever you managed to put on the plate.

Namaste.

80

Published January 15, 2026 By Bijay Shrestha

Seneca writes, “The whole future lies in uncertainty: live immediately.”

In the best case scenario, let’s say we intend to live till the age of 85+.

We have curated our diets and have been following through.

We have been sleeping right on-time.

Exercise religiously. Cardio. Strength, you name it.

We have been saving for our foreseeable retirement.

We are walking on egg-shells … walking down a made-up narrow path of discipline, restrain and shallow limited-ness.

We surrender freewill.

Sacrifice freedom — in hopes of being able to live and being to die pain-free, carefree old-self.

Essentially, we are dying like the likes of burning candle in ropes and ways to optimize for our perfect 80s, all while

failing to realize that life is freaking happening right here, right now, in the moment as you read, as we breathe.

May God save us from our stupidity.

Namaste.

Heart cracks open

Published January 1, 2026 By Bijay Shrestha

Everything will be okay. Trust me
x

^{Djo – ‘End of Beginning’}

Happens once in a while.

Whenever I feel

true elation,

profound gratification;

My heart cracks open,

tears find their way out.

I cry.

For,

memories flood in,

of bittersweet experiences that shaped me,

of few good people that cared,

of deliberate observations that became my roadmap,

I cry — fully content.

When was the last time you took a moment — only for yourself.

Happy New Year 2026.

Whatever that means.

Namaste.

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Grief

Published December 25, 2025 By Bijay Shrestha

Do not hurt anybody; not with your actions; specially not with words coming out of your mouth. Always treat people with respect and dignity. Love them.
~ Maa (Late Grandmother)

^{Maine Sikke Feke The Nadiyon Mein – Osho Jain}

I still grieve.

I miss her.

There are times when I feel she is around.

There are times when I sense her blessings.

There are times when i remember bits and pieces of conversations we exchanged.

There are times i smile when i remember her laughing, smiling, … shining.

I miss my grandmother.

Selfishly, I wish she was still here for a little longer.

Today, when i heard a guy with a mic say,

“grief is the price you pay for Love.”

He couldn’t be more accurate.

With hope.

The vacuum; The wealth of grief she left me with — will forever live with me.

I, cherish it.

I, get to keep it for myself.

May I never lose it.

May she never let me go!

मा.

Namaste.

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Today is the youngest you will ever be

Published December 18, 2025 By Bijay Shrestha

Everyday, once in a while, breathe on purpose, with purpose or without.
~ Musicpervs

^{Angie McMahon – Serotonin}

Go look yourself in the mirror today and look at your photographs from 10 years ago.

You will know.

You have changed!

Good chances are that 10 years from today you will again be a completely new person.

In 10 years,

things you worry about,

things that keep you awake all night,

things that feels like nightmare,

things you dread,

things that is killing you, hurting you,

things that are weighing you down,

will have absolutely

0 consequences,

0 effects,

0 significance,

0 weight,

0 value.

For,

after 50, no matter how beautiful,… preety you were; your beauty will have zero currency value.

After 60, no matter how prestigious life you must have lived; your status game goes to trash

After 70, the house you’ve built with your hard-earned blood, sweat and tears will not be as valuable when the knee pain starts creeping in.

After 80, no matter if you are a billionaire, your life will be limited to couple bucks of medicines and a strict diet routine.

Gist of it all:

time will never be ‘just-right’,

time will never wait,

time only and only leads us to our aged, weathered, weaker self.

Which is why,

Stop!

And, cherish whatever you have at this minute, the hours and the day.

Work on your gratitude muscle and spend your mental bandwidth all wide-awake, with care and a little bit of harmless selfishness.

Today is the youngest you will ever be.

Sleep on it.

Namaste.

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Sthita-Prajna

Published December 11, 2025 By Bijay Shrestha

Before enlightenment, chop wood, carry water. After enlightenment, chop wood, carry water.
Zen Proverb

^{Sweet Heat Lightning – Gregory Alan Isakov}

Geeta, Chapter 2, Verse 54.

Arjun, curious, asked — How does an enlightened person

talk?

sit?

walk?

Krishna unpacks — a person of steady wisdom.

There is no high, no low.

No pleasure, no pain.

No sway, no downfalls.

No expectations, no attachments.

No fear, no anger.

No status, no power, no money.

No past, no future.

Absolutely nothing but —

you;

y.o.u.r quiet existence.

Namaste.

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Solution Day, 2025

Published December 4, 2025 By Bijay Shrestha

There is only one happiness in life — to love and be loved.

George Sand

^{Basanta – Sajjan Raj Vaidhya}

Happy Birthday L❤️VE!

So many beautiful things have happened in the year since your last birthday of 2024, isn’t it?

Feb 14, 2025 happened.

April 30, 2025 happened.

and, I finally get to call you my ‘Wife‘.

April 30, 2025 – Engagement Shoot by *sophiejeannephotography*

Today, being the ultimate Solution Day, 2025 — I can’t believe you’re stepping into your third decade on this planet! 🦖

This day isn’t just special because it’s your birthday — it’s the day that reminds me how endlessly lucky I am to have you in my life,

– to have you as my guiding light,

– to have you as my reliable compass — keeping me in check, encouraging me, pushing me, believing in me, and fighting the fight with me,

– to have you as my mentor — inspiring me to go beyond and giving everything to bring out the best in me,

– to have you as my friend — offering me a shoulder to lean on, a hand to hold, a laugh when life gets heavy, and unwavering companionship through every high and low,

– to have you as my shield — someone I can truly trust my life with, my protector, my safe haven, the one who stands beside me through storms and sunshine alike, holding us both steady.

– to have you as my home to return to!

Without any doubt,

Solution Day — will always be close to my heart, until my very last breath.

Solution Day — is my reminder of how lucky I am, not just to love you, not just to cherish and create moments with you, but to witness your light in the world… in my world! It’s the day I celebrate you, the love of my life, the reason why every ordinary day feels extraordinary.

Lastly, just in case no one has told you lately:

I am also so freaking proud of you:

– for the life you have created,

– for the battles you have been braving,

– for the unsung battles you have been winning,

– for the grace you bring into this world.

– for the light you are!

Many, many Happy returns of the day again, Love.

Namaste.

P.S. for a quick flashback: here are all the birthday post I’ve written over the years we have been in relationship.

2024:https://musicpervs.com/2024/12/05/december-5-2/
2023: https://musicpervs.com/2023/12/05/solution-day/
2022: https://musicpervs.com/2022/12/05/solution-is-27/
2021: https://musicpervs.com/2021/12/05/december-5-2021/
2020: https://musicpervs.com/2020/12/04/25th/
2019: https://bijays.com.np/musicpervs/2019/12/05/december-5/

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Mid Thirties. Go Figure

Published November 6, 2025 By Bijay Shrestha

Wisdom — is not proportionate to the years you’ve pissed on this land.
~ Musicpervs

^{Mannu – Jhol}

Trust yourself.

Deliberate assiduity calling.

People tell.

People talk.

Unsolicited advice rampant.

Unfair judgements nakedly screaming at your face.

Understand, what matters, matter!

You’re at your mid thirties. Go Figure!

Namaste.

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What is the most important thing right now?

Published October 16, 2025 By Bijay Shrestha

Your mind is your biggest enemy.
Musicpervs

Your mind wants to keep you safe.

She tries to make you as comfortable as you can be.

She wants you to have less stress.

less pain, less to none problems,

have a happy life or at least the feel of it.

She wants to protect you from everything that frightens you.

You might be going through rough waves.

People questioning your character,

belittling you.

hurting you.

Visibly your brain is deep fried.

Ruminating thoughts — draining you,

sucking your energy,

turning you off.

These suckers try intimidation,

terrifies,

gaslights,

pressures,

and step over you at every opportunities they get.

Startling you,

keeping your senses tingling.

keeping you wide awake!

The antidote to all these crap is to come-to-senses.

Realize.

Actualize.

Accept, everything is a facade!

Far far-fetched from the reality.

Ask, what is the most important thing to me right now?

Ask often.

Ask when there’s emptiness.

Ask when you sense a drift.

Ask when you have rumination.

Ask when you need help.

Namaste.

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