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Bidding bye

Published April 25, 2024 By 8ijay.shrestha

A smooth sea never made a skilled sailor.

Franklin D. Roosevelt
Letting Go – Hollow Coves

By-design we want predictability.

We detest change. We want to avoid it at any cost.

Matter of fact we strongly crave for security. We yearn for easy life.

We desire stable, forever wonderful-world but not at the cost of peace-of-mind and suffering.

However.

What I have also realized is — without stepping into the unknown; without willfully-taking risks, without sacrifices, and without the discomforts and sufferings there’s no stability; there’s no real-progress; there’s no real-growth.

Soon I’ll be bidding bye to Bank of America — my current company.

The first company I worked for in the US.

The company that introduced me to the US tech ecosystem.

The company where I befriended wonderful colleague, understood the depth and the breadth of US banking. Most importantly with Bank of America, I get to kick-off my professional journey here in the US which perhaps once was only a dream.

It’s scary as the day nears before I finally uninstall the VPN application, and get off the Bank of America’s grid, and scour out onto the wilderness from these used-to comforts.

Contrarily.

I also have this wave of excitement and tingling sensations for a new destination and the path that lies ahead.

Namaste.

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Zumba & Driver’s License

Published April 18, 2024 By 8ijay.shrestha

Roughly 90+% of things we do are mundane. Make most out of that 10% of the real, non-trivial deals.

~Musicpervs
Aerosmith – Dream On

Last Saturday was my 2nd Zumba session.

Never in my life I have imagined myself attending these classes and enjoy the embarrassment of dancing cluelessly with handful of zumba disciples.

Today I passed my California’s Drivers’ License Knowledge Test.

Took 305 github DMV quizes. Couple of flashcards here and there. It took me 6-8 hours of actual grinding but that within a span of 3-4 months. Basically, I was procrastinating.

Nonetheless, I had to show up for the test and for a change of experience, unlike in IOWA, I took an online Knowledge test this time. It was nerve wrecking for sure and 38 out of 46 questions need good answers.

It’s all behind me now.

But it was exciting.

Life’s exciting.

Namaste.

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Life’s not straight-forward

Published March 21, 2024 By Bijay Shrestha

Don’t seek for everything to happen as you wish it would, but rather wish that everything happens as it actually will-then your life will flow well

Epictetus
Empty Notes – Ghostly Kisses

Expect surprises.

Expect discomfort.

Expect stress.

Expect grief, sadness.

Dwell not on expectancy of forever glory.

Dwell not on expectancy of ill luck.

Life’s not straight-forward and that’s how it is.

Despite.

Be grateful for worst is survivable.

Be grateful for you have life.

Mere accept. Act.

Move forth.

Ample of housekeepings for you below to keep.

Namaste.

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Mum & Dad Flies

Published March 14, 2024 By Bijay Shrestha

And it is so simple … You will instantly find how to live.

Fyodor Dostoyevsky
Kun Mandir Ma – Robin Sharma

March 14, 2024.

My mum and dad flies for JFK, USA. A total of approx. 26 hours flight including 5 hours of layover in Doha, Qatar.

This is their first-ever experience taking on an airplane. This is their first time ever experiencing anti-gravity thrust force.

Finally, I’ll get to see them in-person after almost 2.5 years since I’ve been here.

And that is why, I am flying to Connecticut tomorrow at 2200 PDT.

Today, I also saw my twin brother cry in-front of me. It’s been a while since I saw him cry the last time. He missed being home with our parents and our beloved pet. I requested him to make something out of the vacuum; out of this fresh cut, the warm despair because I know — our body adapts to the situations it is presented with overtime. We often fail to feel how it felt when we were in profound pain the last time. Again, memory is a weird element.

I also saw my aunt (Rita) cry. She was saying that she’ll miss mom terribly; She considers my mum her immediate guardian, her fun friend, her refuge, her respite.

I reassured her that I’m with her. We all are with her and things are unpacking for the better.

It’s a long arduous, back breaking flight.

I hope mum & dad reaches home safe.

Namaste.

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Enjoy Life

Published March 7, 2024 By 8ijay.shrestha

Life’s too short to not enjoy life.

Lynn Terbush
Ane Brun – All My Tears

There’s always something that’s going for each one of us.

So is the life of Lynn.

I met her on a flight from Chicago to San Francisco on March 02, 2023. I was heading home after having visited my sister for a week.

Listening to Lynn’s story; sharing some of mine; laughing on surprisingly few overlaps between her life and mine throughout that 5 hours plus long flight is something I will cherish for the rest of my natural life.

She was a charm.

A light, free soul.

Witty.

A treat to be with, … befriend with.

Despite.

I can’t imagine walking on her shoe!

She’s been through so much in her life and when she quoted, “Life’s too short to not enjoy life.” it made all sense where she was coming from. The scent of unadulterated gratification, the vibe of sheer optimism, the grit of humble warrior; She owned that maxim.

I wish her speedy recovery, tons and tons many happy memories with her near and dear ones.

I’d like her to know that in those few hours I had spent with her — she has painted my life with a permanent brushstroke of always being grateful for this one life I have.

Plus, I will forever envy her spellbinding sense of humor that made the dull day all the more lit and merrier. I love her!

Can’t stress enough her simple message, “Enjoy life!”

Namaste.

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Alone

Published February 29, 2024 By Sabi Shrestha

You are enough.

~ Musicpervs
Slowed down Songs – Lost Dreams

I am not afraid to be alone anymore. 

I came to a party called ‘Life’ — alone. I’ve made peace with the thought that I would leave from here — a.l.o.n.e.

Despite…

Dear Haters, don’t fool yourself into believing that I will be a leftover of this party.  Do not presuppose I’ll be alone on my own

only because you have seen me eat at restaurants — alone;

only because you have eyeballed as I cried over my griefs, my sorrows — alone;

only because you’ve heard me celebrate my tidbits of happiness — alone.

My adaptation with lonesomeness. Don’t mistake it for my weakness.

Matter of fact, to be able to befriend lonesomeness and continue the stride forward is my lethal weapon that I’ve wielded over time and tides; It is why I’ve thick skin on me — mostly from the scars you people left with your disgusting, unforgiving, sinful claws.

Matter of fact, I survived from the worst of situations and fought a lone-wolf battle in the skulk of foxes.

All thanks to you, I am able to take a stand for myself.

Thanks to you for the deliberate isolation you perpetrated.

Thanks to you for a peaceful solitude you’ve bestowed me with.

It gave me fuel and the fire.

It gave me purpose.

It gave me clarity. 

It gave me courage.

It gave me authenticity.

It gave me, …me.

Little lighter, little wiser.

Namaste.

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Consistency

Published February 22, 2024 By 8ijay.shrestha

A common denominator among greats — Consistency.

Musicpervs
Hawa Ko Lahar – Kuma Sagar

Musicpervs announces, “I write every Thursday”.

But I haven’t been able to keep up.

I almost came to accepting the idea that a break should be ‘okay’.

If anybody is following the stuff here, I apologize.

I take full responsibility for not being able to deliver on my promise.

Shameful.

Shitful.

Silly.

The work is Consistency. I have written one of two things around that water.

I have trodded on its path. I have seen its waves and the fond it painted in my curious heart.

I worship her. I abandoned her.

Matter of fact I fully subscribe to the idea that devoting our life into being consistent at any thing, in any form of noble pursuits is a must.

Must!

And, regardless of the end result (success/failure); there’s always that learning to gain.

I will be consistent!

I will embrace her once again. This time more carefully. Heart-fully. Wisely.

Namaste.

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Wholesome notes

Published February 8, 2024 By Bijay Shrestha

We are never prepared for everything that would happen to us and everything that would not.

~ Musicpervs
David Kushner – Daylight

The spot I’m in, right very now is not new to me. I’ve lived on edges before. I’ve been in uncomfortable situations before. Well, it won’t be wrong to say that this time I feel I have got thick skin to be afraid of outcomes that are out of my hands; to have fear out of expectancies.

But, It is also not that I wouldn’t love to feast on plenty of wholesome notes that’d help me keep my mind straight, focused, resilient, unafraid, undeterred. I’ve consolidated some of them for you as well. Have a wonderful day

  1. What they did to you was not your fault.
  2. You make the world a better place.
  3. Keep shining bright, for the world needs your light.
  4. I hope you know how loved you are.
  5. There are no mistakes, only lessons…
  6. Don’t forget why you started.
  7. Happiness isn’t out there, it lies within you ..
  8. Life is too short to spend it battling with yourself…
  9. Whatever you’re going through right now, trust me, it will get better.
  10. You didn’t change.., you evolved.
  11. You are a perfect being 🙂
  12. Just in case anyone hasn’t told you today. YOU MATTER 🙂
  13. You still haven’t met all the people who are going to love you.
  14. Someone out there feels better because you exist 🙂
  15. Congratulations for all the silent Battles you’ve overcome 🙂
  16. You still have plenty of time to figure things out …
  17. Trust your Intuition …
  18. The Universe made you uncomfortable so that you could grow ..
  19. Go for it. Rejection you will forget, but a missed opportunity, you may regret forever …
  20. Keep on shining your light, the world needs it 🙂
  21. You already have everything you need …
  22. Love the process, Without knowing the outcome 🙂
  23. What if it worked out better than you ever expected?
  24. Regardless of what’s happening, the world is beautiful … just like you are!
  25. Have a beautiful day!
  26. Your soul is a guiding light to those around you.
  27. You are loved. You are not alone.
  28. You are on the right path.
  29. You have a great smile, you are worthy of love.
  30. P.S. there’s someone who loves you!

Video source: Handing out wholesome notes to strangers | A simple act of kindness can go a long way! We explore how this guy is helping to brighten strangers’ days with these simple but sweet acts of kindness. | By VT | Facebook

Namaste.

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Questions

Published January 25, 2024 By Bijay Shrestha

“The questions you ask yourself will largely determine the answers you get.

  • Why am I not successful?” You’ll get answers that berate you. 
  • How can I succeed here?” You’ll get answers that push you.

Be deliberate in the questions you ask yourself.”

Julie Gurner
Let Her Go x Husn (Gravero Mashup) | Anuv Jain

Matter of fact, looking at all the people I have seen succeed in their life; And carefully weighing on things that work/ed for them — I truly believe the sincerity, seriousness and substances of questions make up a common denominator among them.

Questions we ask today, will shape things we do this moment.

Questions become our path. Questions lead us to the path.

There are no dumb questions.

Not questioning is dumb.

Ask.

Namaste.

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Urgencies

Published January 18, 2024 By 8ijay.shrestha

“Putting things off is the biggest waste of life: it snatches away each day as it comes, and denies us the present by promising the future. The greatest obstacle to living is expectancy, which hangs upon tomorrow, and loses today. You are arranging what lies in Fortune’s control, and abandoning what lies in yours. What are you looking at? To what goal are you straining? The whole future lies in uncertainty: live immediately.”

Seneca
Iron & Wine – Flightless Bird, American Mouth

An uncle died this week. Purshottam Shrestha.

Took me back to one of those dark places. Again.

A place where tomorrow is not promised.

A place where the best you can say; a place where the wise thing to acknowledge is that no matter how brutal the day was — you still had the day regardless.

With the news, came the wave of ‘Urgencies’ rushing to the shore.

There’s no better time than today.

There’s no best day than this day.

Pritchett wisely put it,

Make your move before you’re ready!

I tell you where big dreams go to die.

They go to the Planning Place.

Getting ready place.

Ahh..

Preparing myself .. and it’s the biggest con job we work on ourselves.

There are so many bones in that Graveyard where people … It’s always something; There’s always going to be set of reasons to wait.

When you’re going to take the risk?

I hope my drive and aspirations are stagnant, static, saturated and still.

I hope I keep believing that life barely is a synchronous series of episodes and events but rather an open, white, empty canvas with welcoming un-expected brush stokes from no one but ourselves. Looking for ways to write it’s own meaning albeit not necessarily only the meaningful ones necessarily. But ephemerally. But, writing it anyway.

I hope I get tired but complain less.

I hope the man in me keeps believing, keeps saying, keeps encouraging me to live the best version of my life!

Namaste.

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