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Not her. No me.

Published September 12, 2024 By 8ijay.shrestha

At your absolute best, you still won’t be good enough
for the wrong person.
At your worst, you’ll still be worth it
to the right person.

~ Karen Salmansohn

Allman Brown & Liz Lawrence – Sons and Daughters

On September 5, 2024, I had a second round interview with Bank of America team at 9AM PDT. I didn’t sleep well the night before and I very well knew I could easily mess up the interview if I didn’t get my shit together.

So, as usual to calm down my nerve and deploy tunnel focus on-demand. I started listening to the ‘Bathroom Dance’ track from the Joker movie .

It has become sort of a ritual for me to do these weird things. For cherry on top I took this mediocre photograph from the terrace of the apartment as I went there to get some sunlight before the interview started.

Later that day in the evening, Tessa called me and told me that Bank of America team have offered me a position.

This was … this really was indeed a humongous relief Post June 26, 2024. That day was the last day I had a job to wake up to.

Now whatever happened between June 26 and September 5, 2024, every day was painful.

Everyday was a lesson.

Objectively speaking albeit in generic sense, I did lose the ‘me’ at some-point during that timeline.

And, I was afraid I will never find that mojo I thought I had.

It would be ridiculous of me to not share the fact that my girlfriend is why I found the ‘me’. She is the reason why I was still able to keep up with that lost ‘me’ hanging by a mere thread if not for her abundant love.

Aptly, she is the reason why I am how I am,

Who I am,

How I am.

Where I am,

What I am.

Kind of apt to say, “Not her. No me’

Namaste.

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Graduation

Published June 27, 2024 By 8ijay.shrestha

Hard work is personal.

~ Musicpervs
Lost on you – Lewis Capaldi

I didn’t go to my graduation on June 21, 2023.

I wanted to.

I didn’t.

My contract was ending. I was not feeling good.

I didn’t even write the Musicpervs post last week. Couldn’t gather myself. Couldn’t think straight.

That was out of my hand to have an offer in-hand before the contract ended.

It was out of my hand that the contract was ending.

But It was in my hand to give my parents, my sister — their deserved graduation day.

I stole their moments away from them.

Mum cried because I think she felt I was going through a lot and I am missing on one of the most important moments of my life.

In my mind.

Yes, I really worked hard for my Masters program. Sleepless nights. Stressful classes. Anxiety triggering exams and the preparations. The Projects. Presentations. Meditations. That Joker’s bathroom dance music I used to listen to every time when I had to show up for the exam. All of it! I lived through them, I suffered through them.

Framing them in mere handful moments does not essentially encapsulate everything. Does it really?

In my mind.

Hard work is never ending.

Hard work is the process.

Hard work is the way of life.

Hard work is personal.

In my mind.

I’ll hurt myself more by celebrating my past at expense of my future.

In my mind, I wanted to keep my promise that I made to myself that unless I have an offer in hand before the graduation I won’t attend!

I utterly feel selfish for stealing my family’s thunder; their moment and I did admit it to my mom.

She cried some more.

Namaste.

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Keep it right

Published June 13, 2024 By Bijay Shrestha

Quality of your thoughts determine the quality of your life.

James Allen (As a Man Thinketh, 1903)
Hozier – Too Sweet 

Food for thought and I need it more than anything in the world — specially around these pressing times.

On February 6, 1975 a wise man Mr. Spencer W. Kimball spoke on top of his lungs:

Keep it right — in your head.

Keep your thoughts. Good.

Not bad.

Keep your thoughts decent.

Not in-decent.

Keep your thoughts — full of faith.

And, not doubt

Because — it is in your thoughts that is determined whether you’ll be happy or unhappy, whether you’ll be healthy or unhealthy.

The happiest person is he who thinks the happiest, most interesting, f-i-n-e-s-t thoughts.

and that is a fact!

Namaste.

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Rejections

Published June 6, 2024 By 8ijay.shrestha

Without experiencing criticism and rejection in life, it would be impossible to
grow or improve yourself.

M. Kindembo
Tuta Pull Wahan | Deepak Rathore

Every Job application I have applied in these couple of weeks have been turning sour.

All rejections!

“We have reviewed your application and have decided not to move forward with an interview at this time.”

… we have selected another candidate who we believe is the best fit for the position.

It breaks my heart when I see these emails.

However.

It has also taught me to work on the quality of my resume.

It has also been teaching me ‘patience’ and ‘preparation’.

It has taught me Rejections.

Failure.

Perseverance.

Hope.

It has taught me about ‘work’ to work hard!

This too shall pass.

Namaste.

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5 interesting laws to keep an eye on

Published May 30, 2024 By 8ijay.shrestha

“Everything we hear is an opinion, not a fact. Everything we see is a perspective, not the truth.”

Marcus Aurelius
O Yaara | Coke Studio Pakistan

This week let’s ponder over 5 interesting laws to keep an eye on:

Murphy Law

the more you fear something happening, the more likely it is to occur. (One of the best movie of all time ‘Interstellar’ has this mentioned)

Kidlin Law

If you write a problem down clearly and specifically, you have solved half of it.

Falkland Law

if you don’t have to make a decision about something then don’t decide.

Wilson Law

If you prioritize knowledge and intelligence, the money will continue to come.

Gilbert Law

when you take on a task finding the best ways to achieve the desired result is always your responsibility.

Namaste.

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Patience

Published May 23, 2024 By 8ijay.shrestha

Impatient with action, Patience with results.

Naval Ravikant
All the Lines on your Face – Tomo

There’s so much going on in my life. I don’t even know where to begin.

And in this chaos, it feels getting off of social media grid (especially facebook and instagram) is one of the best thing I have done for myself to really try to organize my life around priorities that are priorities indeed.

I still have to work on my ‘X’ and ‘Chess’ consumption though.

Dakota over the phone exclaimed with deep sigh, “Patience, Bijay!”

Dakota is my Point-of-contact recruiter from my current consulting company Mitchell Martin Inc. He’s working around getting interviews based off of my profile as my contract with Bank of America is coming to an end.

On the side, and after a long gap, I’ve been preparing for the interviews that are about to come my way. I really hope I get them. I crack them. I suffer-enjoy through them while I fall in love with the process. I hope I get the job I always wanted. Patience!

They say the Job market these days is dry. I hope they’re wrong … although it seems like so. That’s why ‘Patience’.

Despite.

As Naval Ravikant rightly said, “Impatient with action, patient with results.”

Let’s be impatient the right way for the right reason.

Let’s go wild.

Let’s make this happen.

Namaste.

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Thoughts

Published May 16, 2024 By 8ijay.shrestha

The art of thinking well isn’t easy, but it’s essential. And doing it well is a matter of essentialism—cutting out the extraneous, corralling the negative, focusing on the constructive instead of the consuming.

Ryan Holiday
Tu Hai Kahan (feat. ZAYN)  – AUR

I look around.

I see people and I wonder —

It would be ridiculously amazing to be able to read the pages of their life;

to be able to read their mind; to be able to know then inside-out without judgement.

I believe this strong urge is born out of urge to step away from the ‘reality’ framework, or momentarily shift my darn attention from my-own-self.

Matter of fact, you see, this happens to us all the time and we don’t even realize it.

For instance, say you’re watching a movie or soap series — only to realize you have sub-consciously put yourself in the shoe of the protagonist at play. Your life albeit briefly flows through the timeline and the plots and the scripts of that movie in play.

Hmmm…

Just one of those random train of thoughts.

Namaste.

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Discipline

Published May 9, 2024 By 8ijay.shrestha

If you’re in the woods and don’t know where to go, start walking.

Jocko Willink
Blending Colors – Take The Road

I’m starting to believe.

Perhaps the only guarantor of remotely having a life of freedom (whatever that means to you) is to be absolutely disciplined. And mistake not, it’s a journey; it’s a way of life; it’s not a summit; it’s not a destination; it’s a goal in-pursuit.

This week, in the last two days alone for the first time in almost a year plus, I’ve been able to finish listening to two podcast episode consecutively.

Now, why I’m saying all of these.

The reason why I’m telling you all these stuff is because what I have learned from many of my mentors like the two above, or let’s say the common denominators that all my mentors who’ve done well for themselves and the human community in general have committed and have structured their life around ‘Discipline’.

Which is why for the same reason :-

I want us to embrace, embody and materialize it.

I want us to leverage the potential energy ‘Discipline’ withholds like nectar inside the flowers, like flames on the stones.

Better late than never, I want us to board that spaceship ‘immediately’.

I will slip. We will slip every once in a while but I will persevere; We shall persevere…

Let’s establish or to the least — try to substantiate Discipline as our identity.

Let’s explore together whatever follows, wherever it takes us.

Let’s embark on this adventure together.

Let’s do it!

Namaste.

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Privilege

Published May 2, 2024 By 8ijay.shrestha

Privilege is invisible to those who have it.

Prof Michael Kimmel
Prateek Kuhad – Co2 

Never in my wildest dream have I ever thought of living the life I am currently living.

Oh, for sure I had dreams of one day making it to the states and doing all the things I wanted to do.

I tell you what I did them all.

And, tell you what — I now have more ambitious aspirations,.. more wider roads to trod, … more bigger dreams to keep me awake at nights .

I don’t know, ,maybe that’s life!

I firmly believe the ‘rest’ must be earned and deserved!

On that note, with all these lucks, and the doors of gratitude opening up for me; with this awe of walking on life’s red carpet in my head, I tend not to fly high on this privilege drug. I seek not to sway away from the roots where I grew. I meditate all the more on the idea of becoming… discovering…

I don’t complain.

Namaste.

Bonus video here.

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