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She is my Her

Published March 4, 2021 By Bijay Shrestha

Bro, don’t lose her. ~ Musicpervs.

Musicpervs March 2021

Few housekeeping from last week:

I was close to losing a ‘Memento Mori’ medallion. In fact I had already given up the hope of finding it but as it turns out it found me. Again!

I almost passed out at my workplace. Reason: unknown. Prospective suspects: Might be because of exhaustion. Might be the stress. Might be because of poor eating habits. Might be because of lack of sleep.

New book on my wishlist: The Beginning of Infinity by David Deutsch.

Looping podcast:

  • Finding happiness amid the ordinary collisions of life. Link here.
  • Robert Greene on How Lack of Emotional Control Will Ruin You | Conversations with To‪m. Link here.

Books I’m reading:

Apparently shuffling between 12 Rules of Life by Jordan B Peterson. The obstacle is the way by Ryan Holiday and Atomic Habits by James Clear.

Heart melting and thought provoking web-series ( that I’m currently watching with my girlfriend):

Please find attached. Link here.

Favorite quote for the week:

Neil Strauss, “When cleaning a room, it often gets messy before it gets orderly. The same is often true for cleaning your mind. So be patient and persevere with your own journey. “The only way out is through”.

Question I’m pondering over:

What do I actually want?

I’ve admitted this for I can’t recall how many times but for sure — she’s my Her — that I had forever been searching for.

No lies. She makes me feel like I’m the start and I’m the end of her. 

No lies: It’s all about, all the love and all the feels and all these ephemeral precious moments we expend together.

I only wish I can reciprocate a fraction of what she does for me.

For, she has never failed to amaze me with her pure love and grace. 

For, she has always been there for me even when I’m not with myself.

Hands-down. She is my Her.

She’s my prayer.

Namaste.

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What do you need in life?

Published February 25, 2021 By Bijay Shrestha

“It is during our darkest moments that we must focus to see the light.” –Aristotle

No air – Lúc

Question: What do you need in life?

Perhaps,

Kindness.

The Drive.

Unconditional love and acceptance.

Real Friendship.

Maybe,

True joy.

The positive vibes.

Genuine curosity.

A quiet mind.

Healthy health.

A Calm Tummy, and most importantly

Peaceful Sleep

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Do the math

Published February 18, 2021 By Bijay Shrestha

“Man does not simply exist but always decides what his existence will be, what he will become the next moment. By the same token, every human being has the freedom to change at any instant.” ~ Viktor Emil Frankl, Man’s Search for Meaning

Zindagi Na Milegi Dobara Farhan Akhtar Poem -1
Zindagi Na Milegi Dobara Farhan Akhtar Poem -2
Zindagi Na Milegi Dobara Farhan Akhtar Poem – 3
Zindagi Na Milegi Dobara Farhan Akhtar Poem – 4 | Ye Jaane Kaisa Raaz Hai

If we were to live for the next 50 years, We will approximately have

600 months,

2,607.14 weeks,

and 18,250 hours left.

Nonetheless, looking at these numbers

  • should, wake us all up from our deepest pits of despair and disgust, excuses and expectations, unfair compromises and loud complains.
  • and must, for obvious reasons push us into thinking that even if we’re to waste a single hour of our remaining time on something that’s not adding any … and I fucking mean a.n.y value to our lives — we rightly so deserve to be living an unfulfilled-painful-wasted life by our own accord.

You see, with clean numbers, maths becomes a breeze.

Do the math my friends!

Namaste.

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Don’t be a caged bird.

Published February 11, 2021 By Bijay Shrestha

“It is not things that upset us, but our judgements about those things.” — Epictitus

Sasha Sloan – Dancing With Your Ghost

We have a unique obsession with the past. Don’t we all?

The ‘gone episodes of life‘, both Good and Bad.

Surprisingly, The Bad Ones tend to stick with us for a longer period of time. And, in worst cases even leading us to chronic depression or nihilism, even suicides.

We also have list of vocabularies to describe these things of the past — we call them Events. Moments. Memories, or ‘Stories’ and ‘Snaps’ created over our beloved social media bubble.

But, most of all, we all have that persistent, whispering, irritating, excruciating and looping ‘Voice’ in our head which keeps on poking and scratching and tingling and pinching at the specific events of those bygone days.

Days we will never, ever re-live.

Moments, we can never go back to and redo shits.

Memories, we so deliberately choose to get stuck onto, loop over and over only to accept at the end — that it’s completely out of our hands.

Brain-vomits like:

I had the worst day of my life.

That boy cheated on me; broke my trust and left me alone to suffer — destroying my life altogether.

That last office I worked at was a total garbage and the acquaintances! — I don’t even want to talk about them. It was an utter waste of time.

My last boss really took a great deal of advantage out of my loyalty and honestly. What a piece of jerk!

Things like :- Oh! I should have done this. I should’ve not done that.

Wishful chatters like: I wish things had turned out this way or that way or easy way or my way!

Holy Fish!

You see, there’s just no limit to our wild imagination of carefully nitpicking our past craps or state of affairs — that we think didn’t go well or go as we expected.

Consequently, and unwillingly having ourselves dragged into a good, shitty, deep spiral road-trip down the rabbit hole of despair, of doubts, of restlessness, of utter pain and fucked questions! Eventually, turning us Pro at crying, whining, complaining, blaming and worst — an acting victim! With of course a collateral damage of having to carry an infested skull full of resentments and dissatisfaction.

Holy Fish!

Well, antidote?

Please, on’t beat yourself up for things beyond this moment, beyond your control and more importantly don’t be a caged bird! (I hope you get the metaphor)

Rather, acknowledge the devil — which are your own thoughts and decisively turn introspective by meditating over meaningful questions (metaphorically speaking) instead of subscribing to subjective, non-sensical, baseless, one-sided monkey chatter. (Trust me, I’m guilty of this myself.)

Yes — Simple, profound, weighty questions like

  • Could it have been worst?
  • What’s the lesson I could learn in the situation?
  • What’s the path forward from here?
  • Where do I see myself 72 hours from now …. 3 months from now, a year from now, 2 years from now?

can save your day!

Namaste.

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The Chicken Cage Syndrome

Published February 4, 2021 By Bijay Shrestha

Every night before going to sleep, we must ask ourselves: what weakness did I overcome today? What virtue did I acquire? ~ Seneca

Shawn Mendes – Youth ft. Khalid

I didn’t know until yesterday early morning (which was about 3AM), that there was this thing called ‘The Chicken Cage Syndrome’.

Tom Bilyeu’s podcast (Impact Theory) guest Martin Lindstrom (best selling author of Ministry of Common Sense) went to explain this psychological disease programmed in all of us.

He unpacks: (I just hope I don’t butcher his story line)

A chicken was put inside a beautiful cage for a period of roughly six months. Then, one fine day, an owner decided to bring the cage (with the chicken still inside; who’s been there for all its life) — out into this beautiful green grass court, on a clear blue sky. Sun shinning out bright. Birds singing and the freedom awaiting!

The cage was then set open. And now, what happened next was an important discovery.

So yes, as anticipated, she gets out of the cage. Slowly and carefully measuring her steps — centimeters away from the cage whenever she takes one.

Confused. Cocked!

Anxious. Alarmed!

Frozen. Frightened!

And later within just about 30 seconds, she rushes back into that same beautiful cage!

This is Chicken Cage Syndrome.

Gist.

We all love our cages. We all have one. Don’t we?

Our safety net.

Our comfortable bubble.

Our dear attachment.

However, Change must be expected.

Change must be accepted.

That, Change is inevitable.

That, Change is your friend.

And to sum it all up: Just make it easy for yourself by acknowledge the fact that Change, my friend is for the best!

Finally, as I self-reflect and self-associate myself on that genuinely intellectual podcast interview by Mr. Bilyeu (can’t thank him enough):

That, in my own personal life, I’ve been a victim of this one particular psychic challenge for so many fucking times.

Perhaps so have you.

So. Have. You!

But, a big BUT — from this point forward.

And, of course, take it as a food for your tasty brain, words from the wise.

Please Don’t Get caught up in the Chicken Cage yourself.

Have appetite for surprises. Matter of fact, produce ‘surprises’ once-in-a-while.

And, most certainly, don’t worship confinements. Comfort. Convenience. Ever!

p.s. To answer Seneca’s initial quote above.

Yesterday night, I concluded that Today, I overcame my weakness of being easily intimidated.

I acquired the virtues of truly listening, of keeping the cool-headedness despite chaos, of not giving too many fucks for things that doesn’t matter at all.

Namaste.

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It’s just a break up

Published January 28, 2021 By Bijay Shrestha

Wait, until it all makes sense. ~ Author

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gqZYnDdgKgw
XXXTENTACION – Changes

This was October 2016.

Mum asked,”Babu, is everything okay? I might be mistaken but I heard you sob.”

I remember I had replied,”Don’t worry mum, it’s just a break up!”

Looking back, I was right — It was just that one fucking horse shit!

And, true — shits can only stink for so long.

This was April 2019.

Finally, Found her.

We shared each other’s bittersweet stories.

We vowed for the best of partnership.

We embraced each others’ imperfections.

Most importantly, hands on heart — I love her like there’s no tomorrow, waiting!

In a nutshell, life’s a mix of Fuckerries.

Bad and the best ones.

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ERP

Published January 21, 2021 By Bijay Shrestha

“The rank of office is not what makes someone a leader. Leadership is the choice to serve others with or without any formal rank.” 

~ Simon Sinek, Leaders Eat Last Deluxe: Why Some Teams Pull Together and Others Don’t

Tu Hai Kahaan by Advait & Aman

Enterprise Resource Planning (ERP) Department — because we were to develop an enterprise software for Buddha Air. That’s all I had in my mind when I started the ERP at F1soft.

Nikesh, Ayush and I would for sure laugh our butt out, must we retrace our memories back to our first version of the application. It was cooly fucked with Angular JS and Java (Spring Framework)!

Nikesh Maharjan, Aayush Regmi, Pukar Shrestha, Pradip Rimal, Sunita Joshi, Akash Shrestha, Erika Joshi, Sabu Shakya, Smriti Mool, Kaushal Regmi, Suraj Gautam, Sushant Khanal, Subash Shankhadev, Rovich Maharjan, Pratik Shrestha, Pragya Maharjan, Karuna Singh, Deepika Khadka, Neelima Maharjan, Samikshya Ghimire, Sudeshna Shakya, Urusha Shrestha, Biru Shrestha, Ashish Subedi, Sauravi Thapa, Sudin Shakya, Dhanusha Roka, Rupak Chaulagain.

These are my extended family for life! These are why my imagination of ERP will forever live within me until I do.

And I want to extend my deepest, earnest, ‘A BIG. Fat. Chubby. Sexy Thank You’ to you all for a beautiful all-for-fucking-worth-it journey.

Namaste.

p.s. don’t miss this piece by one of my most cherished mentor, Simon Sinek (author of best sellers Leaders Eat Last and Start with Why)

p.p.s honorary mentions — Mr, Bikesh Amatya, Mr. Pravesh Mathema, Mr. Bandeju Shakya, Mr. Sapan Sharma

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Best Friend

Published January 14, 2021 By Sauravi Thapa

“Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get —

only with what you are expecting to give —

which is everything.”

~ Katharine Hepburn

From being my 3 am friend to being the best friend.

I have never felt such a passionate connection with anyone like you.

Even when we hold hands, even when we kiss — it’s like fireworks 24 x 7 x 365.

I promise to love you, in sickness and in health, and to cherish till death do us apart.

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About Cheating

Published January 7, 2021 By Bijay Shrestha

You should leave another’s wrong where it lies. ~ Marcus Aurelius

Varsha Thapa – Maaya

A virtuous person; male or female will never cheat.

Let’s start from there.

And to those who find ‘cheating’ — appealing, okay.

F*ck you!

And to those who’ve cheated.

F<ck you!

And to those who’ve been cheated.

Save your tears. Gather your shit together. Straighten up your shoulders and as the video suggests — love yourself even more!

Life of a cheater:

More cheating. More Deceit. More Infidelity episodes. More Theft — theft of truth precisely.

More Fabrications. More Lies. More Excuses.

Naked Hollowness. Desperate emptiness. Palpable Impatience. Unreasonable Irritability — these Opportunist crack-heads.

To put it simply, ‘Unfaithfulness‘ is what makes their heart beat and the sinful blood flow.

On contrary and from how I’d love to imagine, life of the ones being cheated at must be no less than:

Wise. Mindful. Calm. Focused. Resilient. Responsible. Empathetic. Fierce. Forgiving. Kind. More Loving. More Understanding.

More alive!

You see, cheating is so easy. Easy as giving into junks. Sweets. Porns.

Commitment and true, meaningful love is the real shit.

Namaste.

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