Desire is a contract that you make with yourself to be unhappy until you get what you want.
Naval Ravikant
Lost Myself – SYML
These days I have been hooked into the World History Videos.
It is hard for me to fathom the fact that no-one had hot shower until 50 years ago.
The electricity.
The entertainment.
Technology, the amenities, modern medicine, and the infrastructure we have today are mere fragments of imaginations for the ones who lived 100 years ago.
Someone said it right, “We are living like Kings.”
Yet.
We are never objectively happy.
Subjectively worse.
To top it off, the rampant social media; the flex culture in tandem bringing in the worst of us. Nakedly. Ignorantly. Unknowingly.
We are never prepared for everything that would happen to us and everything that would not.
~ Musicpervs
David Kushner – Daylight
The spot I’m in, right very now is not new to me. I’ve lived on edges before. I’ve been in uncomfortable situations before. Well, it won’t be wrong to say that this time I feel I have got thick skin to be afraid of outcomes that are out of my hands; to have fear out of expectancies.
But, It is also not that I wouldn’t love to feast on plenty of wholesome notes that’d help me keep my mind straight, focused, resilient, unafraid, undeterred. I’ve consolidated some of them for you as well. Have a wonderful day
What they did to you was not your fault.
You make the world a better place.
Keep shining bright, for the world needs your light.
I hope you know how loved you are.
There are no mistakes, only lessons…
Don’t forget why you started.
Happiness isn’t out there, it lies within you ..
Life is too short to spend it battling with yourself…
Whatever you’re going through right now, trust me, it will get better.
You didn’t change.., you evolved.
You are a perfect being 🙂
Just in case anyone hasn’t told you today. YOU MATTER 🙂
You still haven’t met all the people who are going to love you.
Someone out there feels better because you exist 🙂
Congratulations for all the silent Battles you’ve overcome 🙂
You still have plenty of time to figure things out …
Trust your Intuition …
The Universe made you uncomfortable so that you could grow ..
Go for it. Rejection you will forget, but a missed opportunity, you may regret forever …
Keep on shining your light, the world needs it 🙂
You already have everything you need …
Love the process, Without knowing the outcome 🙂
What if it worked out better than you ever expected?
Regardless of what’s happening, the world is beautiful … just like you are!
“No one good is ever truly good, and no one bad is ever truly bad“.
Loki
Novo Amor – From Gold
It has been a while.
Few housekeeping.
It’s been over a month I’ve been in Seattle to be alongside with my best friend while he has been going through a kidney transplant surgery.
It was rough.
Things however, are getting better. Nonetheless, everyday is different.
Patience is a virtue we ought to worship.
But, this is not an excuse for me for not being able to keep up with my weekly schedule of Musicpervs.
I needed a break!
Today, I wanted to talk about whether it’s good to have stress. Anxiety.
Fears and the likes.
Unwrapping.
My father use to say, “Don’t stress out about things.”
I’d rather contest, “We’d have to have as much appetite to stomach as many life’s challenges as we can.”
For, Good stress keeps us in our toes.
Healthy anxiety is good for growth.
Fear not necessarily is an Agent Smith.
Now, having said that, it is also imperative that stress, anxiety, fears and the likes also have to be thoughtfully, mindfully, and carefully filtered among the two evident silos..
One helpful. The other harmful. One has prospect. The other punishes.
Philosophy gives a way to life. Don’t let it come in a way of trying to live a gleeful life. Balance.
~ Musicpervs
Alex Yurkiv, Thelma Costolo – Take Me to the River (I Will Swim)
Couple housekeeping: Paid off my student debt. New plans on the way. Dinner date after a while.
Over dinner date this evening, I and my girlfriend talked about trodding the path of lifeline with the end in mind.
I went in to explain her that either of us is going to outlive the other — only if we were not to get into an unfortunate, unimaginable accident together. Touchwood.
I also confronted her that secretly, I do enjoy her getting pissed off at me, for at least she has me who she can trust to vent off at, to get angry at and know things will fall back to normal when things have cooled off.
I told her we ought to learn to not take the other for granted and cherish our partnership; our moments of togetherness as well as the times we’d separate with kindness, care and utter delicacy.
I told her that I want to see and experience world, different culture, different stories. She shared all she wants in life is not to be bothered by anybody and live rest of her lives without pressure.
I also went on to tell her, that fundamentally all we’d ever crave for is one clean, full, deep breathe of fresh air, a food on the table, and few we love around us. I told her I don’t really see the point of being angry, being dissatisfied, even chasing things. Exception: Trying to be better than yesterday is a must.
In the due course, we clinked on our choices of red wine. Ate the spanish dishes we had never tried before. Bitched and buried one or two on our colorful, intense conversation. Most definitely savored the San Franciscan, Spanish culinary experience at ‘Coqueta SF’ to the fullest. Rode the Bay Wheel together, laughed a lot, lived a little more.
“Almost everything we experience is a zero-sum game. Just, don’t take the wrong medicine for the wrong disease.”
~ Musicpervs
Tu Chodiyon Na – Ronit Vinta
There is so much noise out there.
Almost everything we see and hear are a zero-sum game.
Almost everything cancels out each other.
So, is this bad?
Does this mean, we ought to just eat whatever we get our hands on, and learn from exclusive experience, and learn as truth unveils itself eventually?
Actually not.
The actualization and realization of this one fundamental facet of this infodemic era is in-and-itself a super power.
It calls for truth.
It call for not believing or giving in to things you’re exposed to, or influenced at will.
It calls for original thinking.
It calls for genuine curiosity and getting to the process of seeking truths and grooming and feasting over facts, facts and facts, and developing your ideas over those unfiltered, hardcore, for-real information.
At the end of the day, if i can say i had fun, it was a good day.
Simone Biles
Tommy Ashby – Closer
I’ve smoked twice in life.
Once, while I was barely hitting my puberty. I was perhaps 10 years old and wanted to try the thing. I have to confront I already knew it was a bad thing to get into but we do crazy things all the time.
That time, I remember taking a long, unbeknownst puff, swallowing shit tons of smoke into my lungs, which led me to vomit my soul out, and then I was done. I could barely breathe!
The second time I smoked was perhaps two years ago (though I’m not sure about the timeline).It was when I went to Pokhara with few of my friends for a 5 days trip. And, since I had always wanted to experience first-hand how it feels to be high on cannabis (marijuana), I didn’t know until that time that you had to smoke that thing out ‘again‘ to be able to fly.
I vividly remember, I really really didn’t like the feel of keeping that cigarette butt between my fingers while I was being taught the skill of smoking by the few around me. I wasn’t surprised, I failed that time around as well. I fxckxng couldn’t learn how to smoke and thus, didn’t get high — after multiple, multiple tryouts on act-of-smoking.
Which is why, my bucket-list of having an experiencing of being high on marijuana is still unchecked.
One thing is for sure, I will never smoke in my life… ever!
Likewise, Alcohol was a bliss. I purposefully started to drink it (be it beer, wine, whiskey, whatever that gets you high) just to have the feel of having grown up. Just to signal people around me that I am old enough to rock and steer my own boat.
Truthfully, I never, never liked the taste of the Beer or Vodka. Wine was an exception because it was sweet mostly, and yes so was Jack. Contrarily I enjoyed the height of high it can get you into. Plus, If I am not wrong, the last time I drank was perhaps a month ago with Sam and his wife at their apartment while we played cards and b.a.s.i.c.a.l.l.y enjoyed. They didn’t drink much but I know I was the one who poured in the last glass. On the inside I felt like I was as drunk as the Bear on the trailer of Cocaine Bear, on the outside I tried pretending as cool as a perfectly plastic wrapped cucumber.
The next morning I decided, I am done with drinking alcohol too!
Let’s see if this intentional resolution remains a resolution.
Khwaab – Anumita Nadesan | Big Indie Bang | Bhavi Chandiramani
Part 2
So, after my rejection from US Consulate, Delhi, and before I’d return to Nepal in scars and claw marks, I stomached up enough courage to look at the next available appointment dates. Luckily, I found the closest one and the only appointment at that time in Mumbai.
In just about few days, I packed-up my bag, and I remember paying special attention as I packed up those newly bought pair of clothes I once wore on my first interview along with a pair of shoes my brother had bought me.
I took my brother’s credit card, flew to Mumbai with ample amount of cash I had in reserve with me. Having spent most of my time in palpable despair and having spent most of my times thinking about the thoughts of the thoughts I couldn’t stop thinking about, nothing was planned even until last minute. I knew I had to add pieces myself as soon as I land on Mumbai airport. That, I had to survive Mumbai for next 6 days all on my own, all alone. I confess, it was scary because a local-town boy had never done anything like that before.
In Mumbai, I remember, I spent most of my time practicing in front of the mirror. The mirror where I had also taped a piece of A4 size paper where I wrote ‘Seek Discomfort’ on the largest possible font size right at its center.
I practiced the questions. I practiced from when I woke up to when I passed out unknowingly late at night. I struggled to sleep. Most of the time I couldn’t. I didn’t eat much. I very much rarely left the room except for the one or two times to deliberately get familiar around US Consulate, Mumbai in the pretext of time and walking distance from my hotel. I calculated, it took me approximately 25-28 minutes to chill-walk to the Embassy from the hotel. It took me 13 minutes when I jogged.
Now, here is the caveat to the portion “I said to myself that I’d go to the bottom of the pit — seeking, enduring, embracing every freaking possible discomforts!“, which I had mentioned in Part 1 of this n-part series. That twist is: I had 200% made up my mind to quit the visa interview in Mumbai and run back to Nepal for two clear reasons: One — in my mind I thought the next rejection is on-the-way. I was shit scared, I was forgetting things I practiced. And, I cried a lot … a lot as a consequence of that mental meltdown just two days before the interview. Similarly, the number two reason I vividly remember was — one of the respected priest slash astrologer I had once consulted in Nepal had called me abruptly and told me that he’s shit-certain to help me get the visa in Kathmandu.
