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Learned my lesson

Published June 15, 2023 By 8ijay.shrestha

Many people care more about being right than being happy

James Clear

^{sapientdream – Pastlives}

I was the person with utmost respect for philosophy, ideals, principles and dead people’s quotes.

In the name of being true, honest, assertive and straight, I’d hurt many people. I’d walk over them many-a-times. I’d abandon those whoever didn’t agree with my view of the reality.

I was the Sherlock who always wanted to have the last say even though it meant at the cost of cold and bitter relationships.

I’ve learned my lessons.

And, just as Vicki Tidwell Palmer puts it:

Choosing to be happy rather than being right means you value creating understanding, or maintaining harmony and peace over insisting on being heard, making sure that other people “get” you, or teaching someone else a lesson.

Not everything in life is objective or more precisely, most of the things in life are subjective.

Lastly, David Hume best describes it in the opening line of his philosophical book, An Enquiry Concerning Human Understanding, published in 1748, where he says,

Indulge your passion for science…but let your science be human, and such as may have a direct reference to action and society. Be a philosopher; but amidst all your philosophy, be still a man

Namaste.

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Good egg, Bad egg

Published May 18, 2023 By 8ijay.shrestha

We all want to be ‘The Hero of our own story’.
~author

^{Patrick Watson – Je te laisserai des mots (Cover by Marianne BL}

Whenever possible, ask yourself –

Am I a good egg or the bad one?

Let the question guide you.

Let the question be your north.

Let the question help you earthen.

Let the question inspire you to soar.

Let the question, question your true utility in someone elses’ life other than yourself.

Let the question un-naked, un-burden, un-stress you.

Am I a good egg?

Namaste.

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I’ve Smoked. Alcohol was a bliss.

Published March 9, 2023 By 8ijay.shrestha

At the end of the day, if i can say i had fun, it was a good day.
Simone Biles

^{Tommy Ashby – Closer}

I’ve smoked twice in life.

Once, while I was barely hitting my puberty. I was perhaps 10 years old and wanted to try the thing. I have to confront I already knew it was a bad thing to get into but we do crazy things all the time.

That time, I remember taking a long, unbeknownst puff, swallowing shit tons of smoke into my lungs, which led me to vomit my soul out, and then I was done. I could barely breathe!

The second time I smoked was perhaps two years ago (though I’m not sure about the timeline).It was when I went to Pokhara with few of my friends for a 5 days trip. And, since I had always wanted to experience first-hand how it feels to be high on cannabis (marijuana), I didn’t know until that time that you had to smoke that thing out ‘again‘ to be able to fly.

I vividly remember, I really really didn’t like the feel of keeping that cigarette butt between my fingers while I was being taught the skill of smoking by the few around me. I wasn’t surprised, I failed that time around as well. I fxckxng couldn’t learn how to smoke and thus, didn’t get high — after multiple, multiple tryouts on act-of-smoking.

Which is why, my bucket-list of having an experiencing of being high on marijuana is still unchecked.

One thing is for sure, I will never smoke in my life… ever!

Likewise, Alcohol was a bliss. I purposefully started to drink it (be it beer, wine, whiskey, whatever that gets you high) just to have the feel of having grown up. Just to signal people around me that I am old enough to rock and steer my own boat.

Truthfully, I never, never liked the taste of the Beer or Vodka. Wine was an exception because it was sweet mostly, and yes so was Jack. Contrarily I enjoyed the height of high it can get you into. Plus, If I am not wrong, the last time I drank was perhaps a month ago with Sam and his wife at their apartment while we played cards and b.a.s.i.c.a.l.l.y enjoyed. They didn’t drink much but I know I was the one who poured in the last glass. On the inside I felt like I was as drunk as the Bear on the trailer of Cocaine Bear, on the outside I tried pretending as cool as a perfectly plastic wrapped cucumber.

The next morning I decided, I am done with drinking alcohol too!

Let’s see if this intentional resolution remains a resolution.

Namaste.

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Sleepwalk

Published February 9, 2023 By 8ijay.shrestha

“You do not rise to the level of your goals. You fall to the level of your systems.” “Habits are the compound interest of self-improvement”
James Clear

^{Dimple – Sickflip, Mismatched}

The one mistake we often make is to sleepwalk in the name of living. Mostly unnoticed, unaware.

Sleepwalk could be many things: Passively scrolling, scouring, vulturing on social media. Movies. Soaps. Youtube videos. Porns. Impulsive shopping. Wishful thinking. Bitching. Sleeping (or to be precise — pretending to sleep in the name of taking rest). We might as well give it a puff if we smoke. We might as well go partying, drinking if we’re outgoing.

Let’s be honest — we’ve all been there.

We’ve all wasted, we’ve all wearied ourselves a little more, a little less, a little too much exploiting, overspending, undervaluing the only non-renewable currency — Time!

Well, now we know, let’s change that :-

Let’s try to be as much unpredictable.

More demanding of time.

Challenge(s) hungry.

Pain thirsty.

Always grinding but enjoying the restfulness too.

Disciplined. However, at times throw ourselves into healthy recklessness that is good for our mind and spirit

Deliberately awaresome of our choices.

Purposeful.

Responsible.

Lastly, as in the words of James Clear, “The best way to break a bad habit is to make it impossible to do. And the best way to create a good habit is to automate it so you never have to think about it again.”

Let’s try to automate our life bit by bit, step-by-step.

No pressure.

Not tomorrow.

Namaste.

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Commitment is tough

Published December 1, 2022 By 8ijay.shrestha

You’re in a ship and it’s sailing across the stormy seas. If you’re hacking holes in it with pickaxe, you should probably pay attention to that before you sink. So, it’s a good idea to keep what stupid you’re doing in mind that you can stop doing it.
Jordan B. Peterson (on Why be virtuous?)

^{Joji – Die for you}

To love truly,

is to commit fully.

Brainfully.

Heartfully.

Soulfully.

Beautifully!

If relationship-tree is to have the trunk, branches, leaves, flower and eventually the fruits — commitment gives it the vitality; commitment transports the essential minirals to nurture it; commitment inflates the breathe of life inside it.

For, commitment is the root, and true love (whatever it means to you) is the whole tree I know.

Alas, commitment is tough. Because, in the world where we live today the road to lust; the path to momentary cravings; the alleyways of impulsive desire; the address of loud, irresistible sexy-ness around is without-a-miss silky and icy. It’s proxy solid. It’s slippery. It’s frictionless. It’s bewitching. It’s bewildering.

At the same magnitude, real love for real is scant.

That, real love for real is limited to only the virtuous which unfortunately, there aren’t many.

To say the least:

Commitment is through which virtues such as trust, loyalty, kindness, sincerity, honesty, care, love, gratitude, gentleness, purity, tolerance, understanding and all the likes flows out and about!

Questions.

Are you committed?

Are you afraid of commitments?

Are you pathologiz-ing your love with lies and fabrication?

Are you for real?

Namaste.

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Seek Discomfort

Published November 3, 2022 By 8ijay.shrestha

“He that lies down with Dogs, shall rise up with fleas.”
– Ben. Franklin (Poor Richard’s Almanack), 1733

^{Sajjan Raj Vaidya – Dhairya}

Part 3

Who stopped me from quiting?

Who got me focused into my prime senses?

Who grounded me from the weightlessness I was experiencing?

Who unfucked me from all the brain swells I was going through?

Who rescued me from my afraid self?

She’s my girl!

And, I call her ‘Solution’ for reasons!

My 2 cents: While you’re in pursuit of something really meaningful and important, while you’re navigating through the course of the goals and ambition — you have magnanimous self-doubts, anxiousness and fear; Now, all we have to understand is that it is at this unique pivot of time itself that — you must believe and embody the fact that self-belief & perseverance is the virtue that’s called for; without exception!

Today’s my birthday. And like any other years I’m writing a small note to myself. So, here we go.

I came to the US on October 3, 2021. And, it’s precisely 13 months since I’ve been here. Well ought I compress the gap between these times, I say I am grateful for everything!

Been through so, so … so many ups and downs.

So many sleepless nights,

so many exams,

So many potatoshresthas’

so many ramens’

so many sodas’

so many microwaves moments,

so many codes’,

so many airports,

so… so many pure, serendipitous beautiful moments,

Eventually to the point where I went as low as having only $5 on my bank account to show up for and still I had my homies backing me up.

Most certainly, looking back, everything was worth it!

And, I would like to extend my deepest, sincerest and earnest thanks to those few who’ve helped me on my journey. You know who you are!

And, please know I don’t forget kindness … ever!

Lastly a note to myself, “Seek More Discomfort”

Namaste.

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Questions

Published July 28, 2022 By 8ijay.shrestha

There’s no graduation degree for wisdom. It’s a virtue. It’s in habits. It’s in choices. It’s the journey.
musicpervs

^{Gary Jules – Falling Awake}

With me, there are times when I want to write so much about so many things; I end up writing nothing.

With me, there are excellent plans, there are these perfect action-items I would’ve set for the day; I end up binging sitcom.

With me, there are important things that need my important attention; I end up putting them off for later and spend hours sleeping.

Questions.

Should I feel bad, bitter and disgusted about these breaks?

Can i still make it with these stress-relieving stressful choices?

Is postponing pleasure and momentary happiness the only objective way to be really happy — fully and ever and after?

Namaste.

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Joy

Published November 11, 2021 By Bijay Shrestha

Pay attention! ~ author

Storm – Firewood Island

For sure, there’s a future to have,

to be,

to endure,

to wither,

to wander.

However.

Joy can only … and only suspire in the present.

Joy my friend is a conscious choice.

Joy is a question we ought to ask ourselves in every step of the way and,

Joy is without-a-doubt is our meaningful end.

Namaste!

p.s. Ask, how full of joy your soul is as you open your eyes, and as you close them, as you breathe,

and as you exist?

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Grateful

Published October 21, 2021 By Bijay Shrestha

Cogito Ergo Sum – René Descartes

^{Akhiyaan Da Surma (Lokan Ton Chhuppa Ke Rakhin) (feat. Poorva Thakur)}

From Lynnwood, Seattle.

These days!

In most days and night, a word has been persistently lingering inside my head.

‘Grateful’.

I wonder had I been in Nepal, would I feel any different?

Would I feel blessed?

Would I feel happy?

Would I feel incompletely complete?

Namaste!

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