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Sometimes you just need to be selfish and take care of you. If they love you they’ll understand.

Robert Tew

I cry.

I cried last week as I was speaking with the reminiscing scent of the old shit-holes, the dark hardships,.. those ugly shit-storms I went through at a very early age.

Purely, purely driven by the hunger for a better life.

I wasn’t a big-shot in grades.

I wasn’t a perfect son. Don’t know if I was a good-enough brother.

But I for sure was selfish. I wanted to become the best version of myself in my own eyes. I cared less about the rest.

I still do.

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For nothing came to me on a silver platter.

Not ever. Not today. Not anything. Not anytime.

Those small decisions I had made in my tiny brain since I was barely 15 years of age.

Those evident but unbeknownst mistakes I walked into because I had nobody teaching me shits.

My parents and guardians were busy putting off the fire that I had ignited (every now and then) . They never, never asked why I created one in the first place. I wish i was wise enough to ask the question myself.

Those pressing moments of deprivation, confusions, the feeling of being imposter albeit my resolve to do my best.

Those late night and early morning prayers I had started after the earthquake of April, 2015.

Those judgmental eyes for my inadequacies.

Those helping hands right just when I needed them.

In all sincerity, only if it were not for the books I picked by pure accident. If it were not for conversation with one-or-two genuinely good souls and finding out more about people I ought to listen to, or read from and follow through; I don’t know what would’ve been of me or the trajectory of my life –Whatever it means.

Namaste.

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Hard work is personal.

~ Musicpervs

I didn’t go to my graduation on June 21, 2023.

I wanted to.

I didn’t.

My contract was ending. I was not feeling good.

I didn’t even write the Musicpervs post last week. Couldn’t gather myself. Couldn’t think straight.

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That was out of my hand to have an offer in-hand before the contract ended.

It was out of my hand that the contract was ending.

But It was in my hand to give my parents, my sister — their deserved graduation day.

I stole their moments away from them.

Mum cried because I think she felt I was going through a lot and I am missing on one of the most important moments of my life.

In my mind.

Yes, I really worked hard for my Masters program. Sleepless nights. Stressful classes. Anxiety triggering exams and the preparations. The Projects. Presentations. Meditations. That Joker’s bathroom dance music I used to listen to every time when I had to show up for the exam. All of it! I lived through them, I suffered through them.

Framing them in mere handful moments does not essentially encapsulate everything. Does it really?

In my mind.

Hard work is never ending.

Hard work is the process.

Hard work is the way of life.

Hard work is personal.

In my mind.

I’ll hurt myself more by celebrating my past at expense of my future.

In my mind, I wanted to keep my promise that I made to myself that unless I have an offer in hand before the graduation I won’t attend!

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I utterly feel selfish for stealing my family’s thunder; their moment and I did admit it to my mom.

She cried some more.

Namaste.

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“Everything we hear is an opinion, not a fact. Everything we see is a perspective, not the truth.”

Marcus Aurelius

This week let’s ponder over 5 interesting laws to keep an eye on:

Murphy Law

the more you fear something happening, the more likely it is to occur. (One of the best movie of all time ‘Interstellar’ has this mentioned)

Kidlin Law

If you write a problem down clearly and specifically, you have solved half of it.

Falkland Law

if you don’t have to make a decision about something then don’t decide.

Wilson Law

If you prioritize knowledge and intelligence, the money will continue to come.

Gilbert Law

when you take on a task finding the best ways to achieve the desired result is always your responsibility.

Namaste.

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Impatient with action, Patience with results.

Naval Ravikant

There’s so much going on in my life. I don’t even know where to begin.

And in this chaos, it feels getting off of social media grid (especially facebook and instagram) is one of the best thing I have done for myself to really try to organize my life around priorities that are priorities indeed.

I still have to work on my ‘X’ and ‘Chess’ consumption though.

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Dakota over the phone exclaimed with deep sigh, “Patience, Bijay!”

Dakota is my Point-of-contact recruiter from my current consulting company Mitchell Martin Inc. He’s working around getting interviews based off of my profile as my contract with Bank of America is coming to an end.

On the side, and after a long gap, I’ve been preparing for the interviews that are about to come my way. I really hope I get them. I crack them. I suffer-enjoy through them while I fall in love with the process. I hope I get the job I always wanted. Patience!

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They say the Job market these days is dry. I hope they’re wrong … although it seems like so. That’s why ‘Patience’.

Despite.

As Naval Ravikant rightly said, “Impatient with action, patient with results.”

Let’s be impatient the right way for the right reason.

Let’s go wild.

Let’s make this happen.

Namaste.

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If you’re in the woods and don’t know where to go, start walking.

Jocko Willink

I’m starting to believe.

Perhaps the only guarantor of remotely having a life of freedom (whatever that means to you) is to be absolutely disciplined. And mistake not, it’s a journey; it’s a way of life; it’s not a summit; it’s not a destination; it’s a goal in-pursuit.

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This week, in the last two days alone for the first time in almost a year plus, I’ve been able to finish listening to two podcast episode consecutively.

• One, from Huberman regarding Addiction with Dr. Anna Lembke
• Two, from Steven regarding Overcoming Anxiety, Laziness and Low Confidence with Jocko Willink

Now, why I’m saying all of these.

The reason why I’m telling you all these stuff is because what I have learned from many of my mentors like the two above, or let’s say the common denominators that all my mentors who’ve done well for themselves and the human community in general have committed and have structured their life around ‘Discipline’.

Which is why for the same reason :-

I want us to embrace, embody and materialize it.

I want us to leverage the potential energy ‘Discipline’ withholds like nectar inside the flowers, like flames on the stones.

Better late than never, I want us to board that spaceship ‘immediately’.

I will slip. We will slip every once in a while but I will persevere; We shall persevere…

Let’s establish or to the least — try to substantiate Discipline as our identity.

Let’s explore together whatever follows, wherever it takes us.

Let’s embark on this adventure together.

Let’s do it!

Namaste.

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