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Not her. No me.

At your absolute best, you still won’t be good enough
for the wrong person.
At your worst, you’ll still be worth it
to the right person.

~ Karen Salmansohn

Allman Brown & Liz Lawrence – Sons and Daughters

On September 5, 2024, I had a second round interview with Bank of America team at 9AM PDT. I didn’t sleep well the night before and I very well knew I could easily mess up the interview if I didn’t get my shit together.

So, as usual to calm down my nerve and deploy tunnel focus on-demand. I started listening to the ‘Bathroom Dance’ track from the Joker movie .

It has become sort of a ritual for me to do these weird things. For cherry on top I took this mediocre photograph from the terrace of the apartment as I went there to get some sunlight before the interview started.

Later that day in the evening, Tessa called me and told me that Bank of America team have offered me a position.

This was … this really was indeed a humongous relief Post June 26, 2024. That day was the last day I had a job to wake up to.

Now whatever happened between June 26 and September 5, 2024, every day was painful.

Everyday was a lesson.

Objectively speaking albeit in generic sense, I did lose the ‘me’ at some-point during that timeline.

And, I was afraid I will never find that mojo I thought I had.

It would be ridiculous of me to not share the fact that my girlfriend is why I found the ‘me’. She is the reason why I was still able to keep up with that lost ‘me’ hanging by a mere thread if not for her abundant love.


Aptly, she is the reason why I am how I am,

Who I am,

How I am.

Where I am,

What I am.

Kind of apt to say, “Not her. No me’

Namaste.

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Graduation

Hard work is personal.

~ Musicpervs
Lost on you – Lewis Capaldi

I didn’t go to my graduation on June 21, 2023.

I wanted to.

I didn’t.

My contract was ending. I was not feeling good.

I didn’t even write the Musicpervs post last week. Couldn’t gather myself. Couldn’t think straight.


That was out of my hand to have an offer in-hand before the contract ended.

It was out of my hand that the contract was ending.

But It was in my hand to give my parents, my sister — their deserved graduation day.

I stole their moments away from them.

Mum cried because I think she felt I was going through a lot and I am missing on one of the most important moments of my life.

In my mind.

Yes, I really worked hard for my Masters program. Sleepless nights. Stressful classes. Anxiety triggering exams and the preparations. The Projects. Presentations. Meditations. That Joker’s bathroom dance music I used to listen to every time when I had to show up for the exam. All of it! I lived through them, I suffered through them.

Framing them in mere handful moments does not essentially encapsulate everything. Does it really?

In my mind.

Hard work is never ending.

Hard work is the process.

Hard work is the way of life.

Hard work is personal.

In my mind.

I’ll hurt myself more by celebrating my past at expense of my future.

In my mind, I wanted to keep my promise that I made to myself that unless I have an offer in hand before the graduation I won’t attend!


I utterly feel selfish for stealing my family’s thunder; their moment and I did admit it to my mom.

She cried some more.

Namaste.

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Keep it right

Quality of your thoughts determine the quality of your life.

James Allen (As a Man Thinketh, 1903)
Hozier – Too Sweetย 

Food for thought and I need it more than anything in the world — specially around these pressing times.

On February 6, 1975 a wise man Mr. Spencer W. Kimball spoke on top of his lungs:

Keep it right — in your head.

Keep your thoughts. Good.

Not bad.

Keep your thoughts decent.

Not in-decent.

Keep your thoughts — full of faith.

And, not doubt

Because — it is in your thoughts that is determined whether you’ll be happy or unhappy, whether you’ll be healthy or unhealthy.

The happiest person is he who thinks the happiest, most interesting, f-i-n-e-s-t thoughts.

and that is a fact!

Namaste.

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5 interesting laws to keep an eye on

“Everything we hear is an opinion, not a fact. Everything we see is a perspective, not the truth.”

Marcus Aurelius
O Yaara | Coke Studio Pakistan

This week let’s ponder over 5 interesting laws to keep an eye on:

Murphy Law

the more you fear something happening, the more likely it is to occur. (One of the best movie of all time ‘Interstellar’ has this mentioned)

Kidlin Law

If you write a problem down clearly and specifically, you have solved half of it.

Falkland Law

if you don’t have to make a decision about something then don’t decide.

Wilson Law

If you prioritize knowledge and intelligence, the money will continue to come.

Gilbert Law

when you take on a task finding the best ways to achieve the desired result is always your responsibility.

Namaste.

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Patience

Impatient with action, Patience with results.

Naval Ravikant
All the Lines on your Face – Tomo

There’s so much going on in my life. I don’t even know where to begin.

And in this chaos, it feels getting off of social media grid (especially facebook and instagram) is one of the best thing I have done for myself to really try to organize my life around priorities that are priorities indeed.

I still have to work on my ‘X’ and ‘Chess’ consumption though.


Dakota over the phone exclaimed with deep sigh, “Patience, Bijay!”

Dakota is my Point-of-contact recruiter from my current consulting company Mitchell Martin Inc. He’s working around getting interviews based off of my profile as my contract with Bank of America is coming to an end.

On the side, and after a long gap, I’ve been preparing for the interviews that are about to come my way. I really hope I get them. I crack them. I suffer-enjoy through them while I fall in love with the process. I hope I get the job I always wanted. Patience!


They say the Job market these days is dry. I hope they’re wrong … although it seems like so. That’s why ‘Patience’.

Despite.

As Naval Ravikant rightly said, “Impatient with action, patient with results.”

Let’s be impatient the right way for the right reason.

Let’s go wild.

Let’s make this happen.

Namaste.

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Discipline

If you’re in the woods and don’t know where to go, start walking.

Jocko Willink
Blending Colors – Take The Road

I’m starting to believe.

Perhaps the only guarantor of remotely having a life of freedom (whatever that means to you) is to be absolutely disciplined. And mistake not, it’s a journey; it’s a way of life; it’s not a summit; it’s not a destination; it’s a goal in-pursuit.


This week, in the last two days alone for the first time in almost a year plus, I’ve been able to finish listening to two podcast episode consecutively.

Now, why I’m saying all of these.

The reason why I’m telling you all these stuff is because what I have learned from many of my mentors like the two above, or let’s say the common denominators that all my mentors who’ve done well for themselves and the human community in general have committed and have structured their life around ‘Discipline’.

Which is why for the same reason :-

I want us to embrace, embody and materialize it.

I want us to leverage the potential energy ‘Discipline’ withholds like nectar inside the flowers, like flames on the stones.

Better late than never, I want us to board that spaceship ‘immediately’.

I will slip. We will slip every once in a while but I will persevere; We shall persevere…

Let’s establish or to the least — try to substantiate Discipline as our identity.

Let’s explore together whatever follows, wherever it takes us.

Let’s embark on this adventure together.

Let’s do it!

Namaste.

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Zumba & Driver’s License

Roughly 90+% of things we do are mundane. Make most out of that 10% of the real, non-trivial deals.

~Musicpervs
Aerosmith – Dream On

Last Saturday was my 2nd Zumba session.

Never in my life I have imagined myself attending these classes and enjoy the embarrassment of dancing cluelessly with handful of zumba disciples.

Today I passed my California’s Drivers’ License Knowledge Test.

Took 305 github DMV quizes. Couple of flashcards here and there. It took me 6-8 hours of actual grinding but that within a span of 3-4 months. Basically, I was procrastinating.

Nonetheless, I had to show up for the test and for a change of experience, unlike in IOWA, I took an online Knowledge test this time. It was nerve wrecking for sure and 38 out of 46 questions need good answers.

It’s all behind me now.

But it was exciting.

Life’s exciting.

Namaste.

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Wholesome notes

We are never prepared for everything that would happen to us and everything that would not.

~ Musicpervs
David Kushner – Daylight

The spot I’m in, right very now is not new to me. I’ve lived on edges before. I’ve been in uncomfortable situations before. Well, it won’t be wrong to say that this time I feel I have got thick skin to be afraid of outcomes that are out of my hands; to have fear out of expectancies.

But, It is also not that I wouldn’t love to feast on plenty of wholesome notes that’d help me keep my mind straight, focused, resilient, unafraid, undeterred. I’ve consolidated some of them for you as well. Have a wonderful day

  1. What they did to you was not your fault.
  2. You make the world a better place.
  3. Keep shining bright, for the world needs your light.
  4. I hope you know how loved you are.
  5. There are no mistakes, only lessons…
  6. Don’t forget why you started.
  7. Happiness isn’t out there, it lies within you ..
  8. Life is too short to spend it battling with yourself…
  9. Whatever you’re going through right now, trust me, it will get better.
  10. You didn’t change.., you evolved.
  11. You are a perfect being ๐Ÿ™‚
  12. Just in case anyone hasn’t told you today. YOU MATTER ๐Ÿ™‚
  13. You still haven’t met all the people who are going to love you.
  14. Someone out there feels better because you exist ๐Ÿ™‚
  15. Congratulations for all the silent Battles you’ve overcome ๐Ÿ™‚
  16. You still have plenty of time to figure things out …
  17. Trust your Intuition …
  18. The Universe made you uncomfortable so that you could grow ..
  19. Go for it. Rejection you will forget, but a missed opportunity, you may regret forever …
  20. Keep on shining your light, the world needs it ๐Ÿ™‚
  21. You already have everything you need …
  22. Love the process, Without knowing the outcome ๐Ÿ™‚
  23. What if it worked out better than you ever expected?
  24. Regardless of what’s happening, the world is beautiful … just like you are!
  25. Have a beautiful day!
  26. Your soul is a guiding light to those around you.
  27. You are loved. You are not alone.
  28. You are on the right path.
  29. You have a great smile, you are worthy of love.
  30. P.S. there’s someone who loves you!

Video source: Handing out wholesome notes to strangers | A simple act of kindness can go a long way! We explore how this guy is helping to brighten strangers’ days with these simple but sweet acts of kindness. | By VT | Facebook

Namaste.

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Urgencies

โ€œPutting things off is the biggest waste of life: it snatches away each day as it comes, and denies us the present by promising the future. The greatest obstacle to living is expectancy, which hangs upon tomorrow, and loses today. You are arranging what lies in Fortune’s control, and abandoning what lies in yours. What are you looking at? To what goal are you straining? The whole future lies in uncertainty: live immediately.โ€

Seneca
Iron & Wine – Flightless Bird, American Mouth

An uncle died this week. Purshottam Shrestha.

Took me back to one of those dark places. Again.

A place where tomorrow is not promised.

A place where the best you can say; a place where the wise thing to acknowledge is that no matter how brutal the day was — you still had the day regardless.

With the news, came the wave of ‘Urgencies’ rushing to the shore.

There’s no better time than today.

There’s no best day than this day.


Pritchett wisely put it,

Make your move before you’re ready!

I tell you where big dreams go to die.

They go to the Planning Place.

Getting ready place.

Ahh..

Preparing myself .. and it’s the biggest con job we work on ourselves.

There are so many bones in that Graveyard where people … It’s always something; There’s always going to be set of reasons to wait.

When you’re going to take the risk?


I hope my drive and aspirations are stagnant, static, saturated and still.

I hope I keep believing that life barely is a synchronous series of episodes and events but rather an open, white, empty canvas with welcoming un-expected brush stokes from no one but ourselves. Looking for ways to write it’s own meaning albeit not necessarily only the meaningful ones necessarily. But ephemerally. But, writing it anyway.

I hope I get tired but complain less.

I hope the man in me keeps believing, keeps saying, keeps encouraging me to live the best version of my life!

Namaste.

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