A boy's journey through words and the mixtapes. I write every Thursday.
Wisdom — is not proportionate to the years you’ve pissed on this land.
~ Musicpervs
Mannu – Jhol
Trust yourself.
Deliberate assiduity calling.
People tell.
People talk.
Unsolicited advice rampant.
Unfair judgements nakedly screaming at your face.
Understand, what matters, matter!
You’re at your mid thirties. Go Figure!
Namaste.
Leave a CommentMore is lost by indecision than wrong decision
Marcus Tullius Cicero
Robin is an ordinary 88 years old man just sitting on a park — all by himself.
When asked about how he feels at his age. He says, “Well… it feels less than 88… I don’t feel 88. It sort of comes up upon me.”
He further adds, “The older you get, the q.u.i.c.k.e.r it goes. and you have to make the most of it.”
There I remembered my Grand Ma.
When asked about if he has any regrets in his life.
He goes,”I suppose, I do,… yes. Not marrying the right girl!”
He digs deeper confronting he had the opportunity but he was too slow. He stresses, “Be Decisive and Go For It if you feel it’s right.”
There I remembered my Wife.
As naked as it can be, there will be one day when my ‘Is’ will become ‘Was’
When, stuff I stress about today will mean Nothing!
When, people or things that mean world to me today will be a distant memory.
Live immediately! One step at a time.
Namaste.
Comments closedWhat is your home?
Musicpervs
3 months since I last wrote.
3 months of heaven on hell, and hell in heaven experiences.
There were Thursdays i could have wrote a line or two.
I succumbed to my laziness.
Surrendered.
I slept a minute or two more.
Musicpervs is my home.
No matter where, when and how, I return to my home anyway.
Namaste.
Comments closedThe impediment to action advances action. What stands in the way becomes the way.
The Obstacle Is the Way – Ryan Holiday
1293 days since I landed in JFK on October 03, 2021.
Took me 3 years, 6 months, 15 days.
42 months, 15 days to be able to step into the new phase of my life here in the US.
Today was a very special day.
Good things take time.
But your goal is important.
Perseverance is non-negotiable.
Responsibility,.. more responsibilities is called for
Obstacle is the way.
Setbacks would be an integral part of living.
Bits of rain, bits of sunshine are blessings.
Namaste.
Comments closedYou can’t catch any waves siting on the shore. Always put yourself in the water.
Sahil Bloom
I was having a conversation with my Twin brother regarding the need of urgency in our lives.
I have been Pro-Urgent for a very long time.
I’m of an opinion that
Urgency invites change, demands commitment and hardship
Change invites Opportunities, demands consistency and discipline.
Opportunities invites responsibilities, makes like meaningful, purposeful and fruitful.
Wisdom demands what Bloom calls a ‘Surfer Mentality’
Meaning.
When a surfer rides a wave, they savor the present, knowing all too well that it won’t last forever. They fully immerse themselves in the experience, embracing each moment with the wisdom that more waves will follow.
Succinctly put.
Be mindful.
Of your decisions.
Of your indecisions.
Namaste.
Comments closedTo love oneself is the beginning of a lifelong romance.
Oscar Wilde
I was doing 180 pounds Dumbell Bench Press (90 pounds each hand) for my last Chest workout rep.
It has been a while I have been able to do 2/3 reps with that weight.
This time however, as I was holding those Dumbells on my lap before going all-in, a voice within screamed ‘Don’t you get it, this body is a temple. Respect her. Thank her. Bow if you have to. Freaking take care of her already.’
Well, I wasn’t sure what changed that evening when I had those train of thoughts pacing through my mind again and again.
Coming back to think of it, I believe because our mind can only make us want to take up that 180 pounds weight and when we are past the hesitation and pick that much amount of heaviness on us anyway, we’re all alone, we are all on our own and most importantly we solely and fully and only… only … and only rely on mere strength of our body.
When my grand mother passed away, I saw it all. Up close and I still vividly remember how vulnerable we can become when our body gives up on us.
Indeed. Our Body is a Temple.
You have to pray for her to be strong enough to beat the threshold you intend to put her through.
You have to nurture her with sleep, with essential nutrients and a delicate care.
And, next time when you decide to eat something or do things that is going to hurt her, think of moments when she did so much for you in your weakest, vulnerable days when you needed her the most.
That bench press.
That trust.
That loyalty.
My grand mother!
Namaste.
Comments closedLife’s full of shit. I am not complaining but merely saying the obvious. It’s okay.
~ Musicpervs
A lengthy memory-lane conversation with mum.
Time traveling backwards and talking the walk I once walked.
Gratitude seeping in and grateful for the runway I see in front of me.
Thinking about all that and coming into conclusion :-
Life never promised me a free meal, a reliable parachute for situation when I’d jump off the cliff, a charity ride when I had nothing on me (all metaphorically speaking).
Life taught me.
Easier said than done –but Never Give Up — having given up so many times on so many things.
To keep my feet on the ground and work my ass offffffff.
To expect not everything will go as expected.
To instigate risk taking and accept the result regardless of anticipation.
To look back only for lessons and sometimes grains of happiness here and there.
To learn to grow and to grow to learn some more.
To love unconditionally but with open eyes.
To respect any living and breathing.
To let go at times but appreciatively.
To be truthful.
To be honest.
To write.
To give permission to fall short but recover and reboot as early as possible but this time with wisdom oil for sure.
Tons of lucrative shit indeed.
Namaste.
Comments closedAt your absolute best, you still won’t be good enough
for the wrong person.
At your worst, you’ll still be worth it
to the right person.~ Karen Salmansohn
On September 5, 2024, I had a second round interview with Bank of America team at 9AM PDT. I didn’t sleep well the night before and I very well knew I could easily mess up the interview if I didn’t get my shit together.
So, as usual to calm down my nerve and deploy tunnel focus on-demand. I started listening to the ‘Bathroom Dance’ track from the Joker movie .
It has become sort of a ritual for me to do these weird things. For cherry on top I took this mediocre photograph from the terrace of the apartment as I went there to get some sunlight before the interview started.
Later that day in the evening, Tessa called me and told me that Bank of America team have offered me a position.
This was … this really was indeed a humongous relief Post June 26, 2024. That day was the last day I had a job to wake up to.
Now whatever happened between June 26 and September 5, 2024, every day was painful.
Everyday was a lesson.
Objectively speaking albeit in generic sense, I did lose the ‘me’ at some-point during that timeline.
And, I was afraid I will never find that mojo I thought I had.
It would be ridiculous of me to not share the fact that my girlfriend is why I found the ‘me’. She is the reason why I was still able to keep up with that lost ‘me’ hanging by a mere thread if not for her abundant love.
Aptly, she is the reason why I am how I am,
Who I am,
How I am.
Where I am,
What I am.
Kind of apt to say, “Not her. No me’
Namaste.
Comments closedRoughly 90+% of things we do are mundane. Make most out of that 10% of the real, non-trivial deals.
~Musicpervs
Last Saturday was my 2nd Zumba session.
Never in my life I have imagined myself attending these classes and enjoy the embarrassment of dancing cluelessly with handful of zumba disciples.
Today I passed my California’s Drivers’ License Knowledge Test.
Took 305 github DMV quizes. Couple of flashcards here and there. It took me 6-8 hours of actual grinding but that within a span of 3-4 months. Basically, I was procrastinating.
Nonetheless, I had to show up for the test and for a change of experience, unlike in IOWA, I took an online Knowledge test this time. It was nerve wrecking for sure and 38 out of 46 questions need good answers.
It’s all behind me now.
But it was exciting.
Life’s exciting.
Namaste.
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