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Our Body is a Temple

Published October 3, 2024 By Bijay Shrestha

To love oneself is the beginning of a lifelong romance.
Oscar Wilde

^{HEDEGAARD – GASOLINA & COCAINA}

I was doing 180 pounds Dumbell Bench Press (90 pounds each hand) for my last Chest workout rep.

It has been a while I have been able to do 2/3 reps with that weight.

This time however, as I was holding those Dumbells on my lap before going all-in, a voice within screamed ‘Don’t you get it, this body is a temple. Respect her. Thank her. Bow if you have to. Freaking take care of her already.’

Well, I wasn’t sure what changed that evening when I had those train of thoughts pacing through my mind again and again.

Coming back to think of it, I believe because our mind can only make us want to take up that 180 pounds weight and when we are past the hesitation and pick that much amount of heaviness on us anyway, we’re all alone, we are all on our own and most importantly we solely and fully and only… only … and only rely on mere strength of our body.

When my grand mother passed away, I saw it all. Up close and I still vividly remember how vulnerable we can become when our body gives up on us.

Indeed. Our Body is a Temple.

You have to pray for her to be strong enough to beat the threshold you intend to put her through.

You have to nurture her with sleep, with essential nutrients and a delicate care.

And, next time when you decide to eat something or do things that is going to hurt her, think of moments when she did so much for you in your weakest, vulnerable days when you needed her the most.

That bench press.

That trust.

That loyalty.

My grand mother!

Namaste.

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Life taught me

Published September 19, 2024 By 8ijay.shrestha

Life’s full of shit. I am not complaining but merely saying the obvious. It’s okay.
~ Musicpervs

^{I will be there – Odessa}

A lengthy memory-lane conversation with mum.

Time traveling backwards and talking the walk I once walked.

Gratitude seeping in and grateful for the runway I see in front of me.

Thinking about all that and coming into conclusion :-

Life never promised me a free meal, a reliable parachute for situation when I’d jump off the cliff, a charity ride when I had nothing on me (all metaphorically speaking).

Life taught me.

Easier said than done –but Never Give Up — having given up so many times on so many things.

To keep my feet on the ground and work my ass offffffff.

To expect not everything will go as expected.

To instigate risk taking and accept the result regardless of anticipation.

To look back only for lessons and sometimes grains of happiness here and there.

To learn to grow and to grow to learn some more.

To love unconditionally but with open eyes.

To respect any living and breathing.

To let go at times but appreciatively.

To be truthful.

To be honest.

To write.

To give permission to fall short but recover and reboot as early as possible but this time with wisdom oil for sure.

Tons of lucrative shit indeed.

Namaste.

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Not her. No me.

Published September 12, 2024 By 8ijay.shrestha

At your absolute best, you still won’t be good enough
for the wrong person.
At your worst, you’ll still be worth it
to the right person.

_{~ Karen Salmansohn}

^{Allman Brown & Liz Lawrence – Sons and Daughters}

On September 5, 2024, I had a second round interview with Bank of America team at 9AM PDT. I didn’t sleep well the night before and I very well knew I could easily mess up the interview if I didn’t get my shit together.

So, as usual to calm down my nerve and deploy tunnel focus on-demand. I started listening to the ‘Bathroom Dance’ track from the Joker movie .

It has become sort of a ritual for me to do these weird things. For cherry on top I took this mediocre photograph from the terrace of the apartment as I went there to get some sunlight before the interview started.

Later that day in the evening, Tessa called me and told me that Bank of America team have offered me a position.

This was … this really was indeed a humongous relief Post June 26, 2024. That day was the last day I had a job to wake up to.

Now whatever happened between June 26 and September 5, 2024, every day was painful.

Everyday was a lesson.

Objectively speaking albeit in generic sense, I did lose the ‘me’ at some-point during that timeline.

And, I was afraid I will never find that mojo I thought I had.

It would be ridiculous of me to not share the fact that my girlfriend is why I found the ‘me’. She is the reason why I was still able to keep up with that lost ‘me’ hanging by a mere thread if not for her abundant love.

Aptly, she is the reason why I am how I am,

Who I am,

How I am.

Where I am,

What I am.

Kind of apt to say, “Not her. No me’

Namaste.

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Zumba & Driver’s License

Published April 18, 2024 By 8ijay.shrestha

Roughly 90+% of things we do are mundane. Make most out of that 10% of the real, non-trivial deals.
~Musicpervs

^{Aerosmith – Dream On}

Last Saturday was my 2nd Zumba session.

Never in my life I have imagined myself attending these classes and enjoy the embarrassment of dancing cluelessly with handful of zumba disciples.

Today I passed my California’s Drivers’ License Knowledge Test.

Took 305 github DMV quizes. Couple of flashcards here and there. It took me 6-8 hours of actual grinding but that within a span of 3-4 months. Basically, I was procrastinating.

Nonetheless, I had to show up for the test and for a change of experience, unlike in IOWA, I took an online Knowledge test this time. It was nerve wrecking for sure and 38 out of 46 questions need good answers.

It’s all behind me now.

But it was exciting.

Life’s exciting.

Namaste.

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Mum & Dad Flies

Published March 14, 2024 By Bijay Shrestha

And it is so simple … You will instantly find how to live.
Fyodor Dostoyevsky

^{Kun Mandir Ma – Robin Sharma}

March 14, 2024.

My mum and dad flies for JFK, USA. A total of approx. 26 hours flight including 5 hours of layover in Doha, Qatar.

This is their first-ever experience taking on an airplane. This is their first time ever experiencing anti-gravity thrust force.

Finally, I’ll get to see them in-person after almost 2.5 years since I’ve been here.

And that is why, I am flying to Connecticut tomorrow at 2200 PDT.

Today, I also saw my twin brother cry in-front of me. It’s been a while since I saw him cry the last time. He missed being home with our parents and our beloved pet. I requested him to make something out of the vacuum; out of this fresh cut, the warm despair because I know — our body adapts to the situations it is presented with overtime. We often fail to feel how it felt when we were in profound pain the last time. Again, memory is a weird element.

I also saw my aunt (Rita) cry. She was saying that she’ll miss mom terribly; She considers my mum her immediate guardian, her fun friend, her refuge, her respite.

I reassured her that I’m with her. We all are with her and things are unpacking for the better.

It’s a long arduous, back breaking flight.

I hope mum & dad reaches home safe.

Namaste.

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Enjoy Life

Published March 7, 2024 By 8ijay.shrestha

Life’s too short to not enjoy life.
Lynn Terbush

^{Ane Brun – All My Tears}

There’s always something that’s going for each one of us.

So is the life of Lynn.

I met her on a flight from Chicago to San Francisco on March 02, 2023. I was heading home after having visited my sister for a week.

Listening to Lynn’s story; sharing some of mine; laughing on surprisingly few overlaps between her life and mine throughout that 5 hours plus long flight is something I will cherish for the rest of my natural life.

She was a charm.

A light, free soul.

Witty.

A treat to be with, … befriend with.

Despite.

I can’t imagine walking on her shoe!

She’s been through so much in her life and when she quoted, “Life’s too short to not enjoy life.” it made all sense where she was coming from. The scent of unadulterated gratification, the vibe of sheer optimism, the grit of humble warrior; She owned that maxim.

I wish her speedy recovery, tons and tons many happy memories with her near and dear ones.

I’d like her to know that in those few hours I had spent with her — she has painted my life with a permanent brushstroke of always being grateful for this one life I have.

Plus, I will forever envy her spellbinding sense of humor that made the dull day all the more lit and merrier. I love her!

Can’t stress enough her simple message, “Enjoy life!”

Namaste.

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Wholesome notes

Published February 8, 2024 By Bijay Shrestha

We are never prepared for everything that would happen to us and everything that would not.
~ Musicpervs

^{David Kushner – Daylight}

The spot I’m in, right very now is not new to me. I’ve lived on edges before. I’ve been in uncomfortable situations before. Well, it won’t be wrong to say that this time I feel I have got thick skin to be afraid of outcomes that are out of my hands; to have fear out of expectancies.

But, It is also not that I wouldn’t love to feast on plenty of wholesome notes that’d help me keep my mind straight, focused, resilient, unafraid, undeterred. I’ve consolidated some of them for you as well. Have a wonderful day

What they did to you was not your fault.
You make the world a better place.
Keep shining bright, for the world needs your light.
I hope you know how loved you are.
There are no mistakes, only lessons…
Don’t forget why you started.
Happiness isn’t out there, it lies within you ..
Life is too short to spend it battling with yourself…
Whatever you’re going through right now, trust me, it will get better.
You didn’t change.., you evolved.
You are a perfect being 🙂
Just in case anyone hasn’t told you today. YOU MATTER 🙂
You still haven’t met all the people who are going to love you.
Someone out there feels better because you exist 🙂
Congratulations for all the silent Battles you’ve overcome 🙂
You still have plenty of time to figure things out …
Trust your Intuition …
The Universe made you uncomfortable so that you could grow ..
Go for it. Rejection you will forget, but a missed opportunity, you may regret forever …
Keep on shining your light, the world needs it 🙂
You already have everything you need …
Love the process, Without knowing the outcome 🙂
What if it worked out better than you ever expected?
Regardless of what’s happening, the world is beautiful … just like you are!
Have a beautiful day!
Your soul is a guiding light to those around you.
You are loved. You are not alone.
You are on the right path.
You have a great smile, you are worthy of love.
P.S. there’s someone who loves you!

Video source: Handing out wholesome notes to strangers | A simple act of kindness can go a long way! We explore how this guy is helping to brighten strangers’ days with these simple but sweet acts of kindness. | By VT | Facebook

Namaste.

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Questions

Published January 25, 2024 By Bijay Shrestha

“The questions you ask yourself will largely determine the answers you get.

Why am I not successful?” You’ll get answers that berate you.

How can I succeed here?” You’ll get answers that push you.

Be deliberate in the questions you ask yourself.”
Julie Gurner

_{^{Let Her Go x Husn (Gravero Mashup) | Anuv Jain}}

Matter of fact, looking at all the people I have seen succeed in their life; And carefully weighing on things that work/ed for them — I truly believe the sincerity, seriousness and substances of questions make up a common denominator among them.

Questions we ask today, will shape things we do this moment.

Questions become our path. Questions lead us to the path.

There are no dumb questions.

Not questioning is dumb.

Ask.

Namaste.

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Urgencies

Published January 18, 2024 By 8ijay.shrestha

“Putting things off is the biggest waste of life: it snatches away each day as it comes, and denies us the present by promising the future. The greatest obstacle to living is expectancy, which hangs upon tomorrow, and loses today. You are arranging what lies in Fortune’s control, and abandoning what lies in yours. What are you looking at? To what goal are you straining? The whole future lies in uncertainty: live immediately.”
Seneca

^{Iron & Wine – Flightless Bird, American Mouth}

An uncle died this week. Purshottam Shrestha.

Took me back to one of those dark places. Again.

A place where tomorrow is not promised.

A place where the best you can say; a place where the wise thing to acknowledge is that no matter how brutal the day was — you still had the day regardless.

With the news, came the wave of ‘Urgencies’ rushing to the shore.

There’s no better time than today.

There’s no best day than this day.

Pritchett wisely put it,

Make your move before you’re ready!

I tell you where big dreams go to die.

They go to the Planning Place.

Getting ready place.

Ahh..

Preparing myself .. and it’s the biggest con job we work on ourselves.

There are so many bones in that Graveyard where people … It’s always something; There’s always going to be set of reasons to wait.

When you’re going to take the risk?

I hope my drive and aspirations are stagnant, static, saturated and still.

I hope I keep believing that life barely is a synchronous series of episodes and events but rather an open, white, empty canvas with welcoming un-expected brush stokes from no one but ourselves. Looking for ways to write it’s own meaning albeit not necessarily only the meaningful ones necessarily. But ephemerally. But, writing it anyway.

I hope I get tired but complain less.

I hope the man in me keeps believing, keeps saying, keeps encouraging me to live the best version of my life!

Namaste.

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