You will realize at some point in time that the most awful fucks anyone can give it to you is but yourself. In other words, in real life, no body will give you more real fucks to you than you yourself will.
Painful.
but Beautiful.
I recall, perhaps the only and the most depressing phase of life was during my high school days.
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Family was struggling through finances. Didn’t like the school I enrolled in. Didn’t have any friends. Didn’t find one. Didn’t feel like making one! No goals. No role models. Instead, there were no shortages of bullies. Those dumb f-#ers. I remember, they’d call me names, make fun of me in-front of the entire class, which in all sincerity had me feel like a loser — with added seasoning of an absolute disgrace over my life.
At the same time, I had a crush on a girl who wouldn’t give a flying fuck. [Haha..]. Can’t blame her. Plus, was trying to make sense of life and all the bullshits that i had to endure day-in and day-out with no sign of help from anywhere or anyone else. Was teaching bunch of raw slates, less, because i wanted to but more just so that I can pay for my tuition.
What a fuckingly fuck of a messy those times were when-in I had totally forgotten to feel happy or worst — even to put up a smiling face. [Haha..] All credits to my low self-esteem and persistently anal-ized self-confidence.
Fu>k!
Despite, it was at that point in time, I’d found refuge in books. Be it exercise books or the ones from self-help fraternity.
It was then, I’d embraced my own flavor of introverted-ness.
It was then I paid attention to the people I wouldn’t want to waste a fuck for.
It was around that time Musicpervs was born.
More or so, It was because of my ‘solitude‘ friend, I had figured out that self-growth is the only way forward and that I’m the only person responsible for my shits!
Heavy shit ae’.
And, that’s why these calendar habits still runs in my blood, through and through. Painful. But Beautiful!
(And, just so if you’re curious, Jerry Seinfeld is our guy who made this shit nuclear.)
Lastly, around these same waters, I’d like to leave you with some of the wildly sexy and utterly powerful insights which I’ve enjoyed a-fucking-lot, from few of my dead friends :-
Heartfelt thanks for your time!