At your absolute best, you still won’t be good enough
for the wrong person.
At your worst, you’ll still be worth it
to the right person.~ Karen Salmansohn
On September 5, 2024, I had a second round interview with Bank of America team at 9AM PDT. I didn’t sleep well the night before and I very well knew I could easily mess up the interview if I didn’t get my shit together.
So, as usual to calm down my nerve and deploy tunnel focus on-demand. I started listening to the ‘Bathroom Dance’ track from the Joker movie .
It has become sort of a ritual for me to do these weird things. For cherry on top I took this mediocre photograph from the terrace of the apartment as I went there to get some sunlight before the interview started.
Later that day in the evening, Tessa called me and told me that Bank of America team have offered me a position.
This was … this really was indeed a humongous relief Post June 26, 2024. That day was the last day I had a job to wake up to.
Now whatever happened between June 26 and September 5, 2024, every day was painful.
Everyday was a lesson.
Objectively speaking albeit in generic sense, I did lose the ‘me’ at some-point during that timeline.
And, I was afraid I will never find that mojo I thought I had.
It would be ridiculous of me to not share the fact that my girlfriend is why I found the ‘me’. She is the reason why I was still able to keep up with that lost ‘me’ hanging by a mere thread if not for her abundant love.
Aptly, she is the reason why I am how I am,
Who I am,
How I am.
Where I am,
What I am.
Kind of apt to say, “Not her. No me’
Namaste.