Hard work is personal.
~ Musicpervs
I didn’t go to my graduation on June 21, 2023.
I wanted to.
I didn’t.
My contract was ending. I was not feeling good.
I didn’t even write the Musicpervs post last week. Couldn’t gather myself. Couldn’t think straight.
That was out of my hand to have an offer in-hand before the contract ended.
It was out of my hand that the contract was ending.
But It was in my hand to give my parents, my sister — their deserved graduation day.
I stole their moments away from them.
Mum cried because I think she felt I was going through a lot and I am missing on one of the most important moments of my life.
In my mind.
Yes, I really worked hard for my Masters program. Sleepless nights. Stressful classes. Anxiety triggering exams and the preparations. The Projects. Presentations. Meditations. That Joker’s bathroom dance music I used to listen to every time when I had to show up for the exam. All of it! I lived through them, I suffered through them.
Framing them in mere handful moments does not essentially encapsulate everything. Does it really?
In my mind.
Hard work is never ending.
Hard work is the process.
Hard work is the way of life.
Hard work is personal.
In my mind.
I’ll hurt myself more by celebrating my past at expense of my future.
In my mind, I wanted to keep my promise that I made to myself that unless I have an offer in hand before the graduation I won’t attend!
I utterly feel selfish for stealing my family’s thunder; their moment and I did admit it to my mom.
She cried some more.
Namaste.