“All that is gold does not glitter,
J.R.R. Tolkien, The Fellowship of the Ring
Not all those who wander are lost;
The old that is strong does not wither,
Deep roots are not reached by the frost.
From the ashes a fire shall be woken,
A light from the shadows shall spring;
Renewed shall be blade that was broken,
The crownless again shall be king.”
I am hitting hundreds and thousands of things at the same time.
I am preparing.
I am lost, I keep losing track of times, I am constantly distracted trying to get undistracted.
I am preparing.
I am watching tutorials. I am writing emails. I am helping friends with their coding problems. I am taking notes of things i learned. I am talking to people who matter. I am hungry and I am eating cookies. I go back to the tutorial again. I take notes again. I receive one message from a friend, I go and reply. I go on a restroom break. I feel like I need a break.
I am preparing.
I am watching one tutorial and then I would not understand one thing in particular. I go around the internet and try to get a T-depth understanding (as they call it). But then I end up picking something else. I end up remembering something else I once needed to work on or should’ve already worked onto by now. I end up finishing nothing.
I am preparing.
I don’t have one priority. I have four.
I am preparing.
I am trying to make sense-of-it-all.
I am trying to unblur the blur.
I am trying to take babysteps to not get overwhelmed with everything happening around me. Long story short, I was used to particular lifestyle of grinding and grinding and grinding for the lectures, exams, assignments and projects and now there’s an open road out there and I’ve to use my gut instinct to figure out the right path on my own.
I am preparing.
Namaste.