There is a crack in everything, that’s how lights get in.
Leonard Cohen
Deep. Dark. Fear. Inexplicable panic. Seasonless shiver. Clouds and mountains of self-judgement. Mocking confusions. Expanding pain. Contracting heart.
Out of breathe — couldn’t breathe.
Empty gaze –couldn’t Sleep.
Tasteless — couldn’t eat.
Bickering — couldn’t stop.
Hiding — couldn’t tell, couldn’t speak.
Silent sobs. Helpless tears.
Thinking. Spinning..
Losing. Spilling.
Spoiling. Digging. Digging for more.
Suffocating. Questioning. Expecting!
Explaining. Conforming. Justifying.
Thinking..
Thinking, and
thinking.
This is your head talk. This is your beautiful, vulnerable headspace.
Stress. Anxiety. Depression. Over thinking. Anger. Annoyance. Impatience. Guilt. Frustration.
Whatever you call it. This is not only your problem. It’s not only your story.
You’re not alone in this, my friend.
However, whenever these waves of killing, cruel, and mainly heart pressing thoughts come to your shore — Don’t get into defense. Don’t try fighting. Don’t ignore. Observe observer!
Matter of fact, as simple as it may sound but I’d want you to gracefully accept this foreign, strange and un-invited guest also called ‘the monkey in your brain’. Embrace her. Watch her. Let her dance when it dances but be aware!
Be fully present. And finally, kindly, forgivingly … let go!
As justly said, the devil’s in the detail — so, do not miss Head Talks by Niall Breslin.
p.s. remember —
“One full breathe at a time.”
